So, today was a little crazy, someone slashed my tires at work. I dont know who did it or why anyone would have any reason too, I'm just glad I saw it before I got further down the road. I won't go into all the details of what happened, but lets just say that I had another close call and someone wants me around for a while longer.

I doubt he'll read this, but to the guy in the white truck that stopped to offer me some help, I really appreciate it. I only hope that I can pay it forward sometime soon.

my spare was low on air as well and luckily since I own another Blazer I was able to have that spare brought to me while sitting on the side of the road covered in grease and in the hot sun, let me tell you, that was the highlight of my day. I wound up having to buy 2 new tires and didn't get home until late. Where I showered, had something to eat and passed out. I woke up and now I'm writing this, I'm still tired so I'm going to try to get some more sleep.

I wonder sometimes where my life could be if I had made different choices, then I think, well no one is perfect and life is all about learning to make correct decisions and finding happiness in our lives while finding ways to help others to do the same. I did a little thinking today about that and there are alot of people who don't know where to find happiness. It's not that they are incapable of finding it, but they're blinded from it for one reason or another. We all go through life experiences. It's impossible to go through life without getting some kind of emotional, spiritual, physical injury. I wonder whether the scarring is something we inflict upon ourselves. I wonder if lifes great mysteries and the path to happiness is right in front of us all the time, all we need to do is use the key to open the door. I've known that I find happiness in helping others, listening to them in trouble times, giving them a hug when they're in need of it or just being there. That's where real happiness comes from. It's a part of self worth and knowing that you've made a difference in someone's life. So I guess todays moral is that we can find happiness in helping others find theirs, having compassion for others when we don't have to. You'll be suprised in the difference it will make in your own life...

If I speak with the languages of men and of angels, but don't have love, I have become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal.

If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but don't have love, I am nothing.

If I dole out all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but don't have love, it profits me nothing.

Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud, doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
-First Corinthians, Chapter 13

I love all of you. I've been less than patient with one or more of you, and for that I am sorry. I will do my best to make sure my love for all of you bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.

My passion I could never feign
you awaken me
wet smoldering kisses
slow kisses
the kind that cause your
breath to stop
your face
that painfully
beautiful face
in my hands
your lips
soft as I imagine them
pressed bruising
against mine
your breath
sweet and hot
mingling with mine
as bottom lips
are held
between teeth
that mouth
your tongue firm
entwined with mine
by your tiny waist
I will pull you
closer to me
and I will kiss you
hard and deep
forever

1.you listening to music right now?: Yes, music is a part of my life.
2. Are you wearing makeup?: haha, umm no.
3. Do you like Chinese food?: Yes
4. What were you doing at noon yesterday?: packing.
5. Are you shy?: Sometimes,but then I loosen up pretty fast, I'm a bit of a nutcase.
6. When do you have Spring Break?: In the Spring?
7. Do you like cats?: Sure.
8. What is your natural hair color?: Brown
9. Do you have Facebook?: nope
11. Is your favorite color blue?: Its in the mix yes.
12. Do you like Eminem?: Some of his songs yes.
13. Does Hot Topic scare you?: No, its a store, why would it scare me?
14. Do you have an older sister?: Yes, One.
15. Is there a necklace you have that you wear 24/7?: my ID tags
16. Ever been to a foreign country?: Yes.
17. Do you support the war in Iraq? I honestly can't give an opinion on this, I support the troops, I dont like war.
18. Have you ever watched America's Next Top Model?: Yes
19. Can you speak French? A few words, not much.
20. Do you like doughnuts? I answered this same Question in the last survey...weird. Yes.
21. Can you play the guitar? I can strum a little, but play, no.
22. Is it raining right now? No, its beautiful out and I'm loading a truck.
24. What time is it?: 1:22p.m.
25. Do you ever listen to the Backstreet Boys?: Yes
26. Do you shop at Hollister? Huh? where? No...
27. Do you like using pens or pencils better?: Pens, black ink
28. Do you sing?: On occasion
29. Do you like Chocolate?: Yes
30. Have you ever baked cookies?: Yes
31. Do you have a driver's license? Yes
32. Will you/did you get a car the minute you turn/turned 16?: No, drove my parents, but then I've been driving for years.
33. Do you read the newspaper?: yeah from time to time
34. Did you watch the Academy Awards?: No
35. Do you want to be an actress?: No, maybe an Actor..
36. would you shave your head for 900 dollars?: haha sure! its hair it will grow back.
37. Can you do a backflip?: I'm not sure, haven't tried in a long time.
38. Are you on any sports teams at your school?: No.
39. Do you write in a journal/diary?: Almost every day.
40. Is it fun to make snow angels?: Sometimes.
41. Do you watch Desperate Housewives?: No.
42. Do you make jewelry? No.
43. Are you failing any classes right now?: Nope.
44. When was the last time you skipped a class?: I dont remember.
44. Have you ever pretended to be sick and stayed home from school? Yes, of course everyone has.
45. Have you ever been to the circus?: Unfortunately, Yes.
47. When was the last time you ate something?: 15 mins ago
48. Have you ever had your appendix taken out?: Nope
49. Ever been drunk?: Yes
50. What do you plan to do on your 21st birthday?: I've already done it
51. Do you know anyone who goes to Xavier University?: Never heard of it.
52. Do you/did you go to a private school?: No.
53. Are you a good soccer player?: No, but I have played.
54. Have you ever lied to your parents, but then got caught later? Yes, I've been a moron like that.
55. Have you ever had stitches?: Yes
56. On hot days, do you sit outside and tan?: I do yardwork to get a tan
57. Do you like swinging on swingsets?: Who doesnt like to swing?
58. Do you like planting flowers?: Ummm...No.
59. Do you bake well? Yes, its easy.
60. Is your favorite holiday Christmas?: No, I don't have a favorite holiday.

Mark "x" where you fit in and repost! Don't explain anything!!

You are
[ ] short, under 5'0
[ ] 5'0 - 5'3
[ ] 5'4 - 5'6
[] 5'5 -5'7"
[] 5'8" - 6'1
[x] tall 6'2 and up

NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] auburn
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[x] light brown
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black

[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/grey-eyed
[ ] they change colors-sometimes

[x] glasses
[ ] colored contacts
[ ] clear contacts
[ ] neither

Hair Length
[x] short hair
[ ] medium
[ ] long hair
[ ] mohawk

You've been:
[x] rafting
[x] water skiing
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] surfing and skim/wake boarding
[ ] water polo
[x] snowboarding
[x] skiing
[x] street luging
[x] lacrosse
[x] street hockey
[ ] gymnastics
[x] martial arts
[x] bmx
[x] tubing
[ ] cheerleading
[x] canoeing


You can't stand listening to? (what don`t you like?)
[] country
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[] opera
[ ] reggae
[ ] emo
[ ] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] metal
[ ] hardcore
[ ] rock
[ ] rap / Hip-Hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] classic rock
[ ] polka


The pets you have HAD or have?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] bunny
[x] fish
[ ] duck
[ ] horse
[] bird
[x ] frog
[] hermit crab
[ ] prairie dog
[ ] none
[x ] turtle
[] hamster
[ ] snake
[] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[ ] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] chicken
[ ] sugar glider
[ ] crawfish

Clothing Brands you like?

[x] American Eagle
[] Hollister
[ ] The Buckle
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch
[x] Wal-mart
[] Wet Seal
[ ] O'neill
[x] PacSun
[] Aeropostale
[x] Dickies
[] Roxy
[ ] Anchor Blue
[ ] Guess
[x] Hot Topic
[ ] Lucky
[ ] Champs
[x ] Salvation army/goodwill
[x] other thrift stores
[X] if i like it i'll wear it
[ x] Old navy
[] Nude
[] Volcom
[x] Whatever's clean
[ ] Forever 21
[] Victorias Secret
[ ] H&M
[ ] Rampage

States I have been to.

[x] Alabama
[x] Alaska
[x] Arizona
[x] Arkansas
[ x] California
[x] Colorado
[x] Connecticut
[ ] Delaware
[x] Florida
[x]Georgia
[ ] Hawaii
[x] Idaho
[x] Illinois
[ ] Indiana
[x] Iowa
[x] Kansas
[x] Kentucky
[x] Louisiana
[ ] Maine
[ ] Maryland
[x] Massachusetts
[x] Michigan
[ ] Minnesota
[xx] Mississippi
[x] Missouri
[x] Montana
[x] Nebraska
[x ] Nevada
[x ] New Hampshire
[x ] New Jersey
[x ] New Mexico
[x ] New York
[x ] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[x ] Ohio
[x ] Oklahoma
[x] Oregon
[x] Pennsylvania
[ ] Rhode Island
[x] South Carolina
[x] South Dakota
[x] Tennessee
[x] Texas
[x] Utah
[x] Vermont
[x] Virginia
[] Washington
[x] Washington DC
[x] West Virginia
[x] Wisconsin
[x] Wyoming


Your confessions:

[ x] I am really ticklish
[x] I've collected comic books
[x ] I read the news
[x] I love Disney movies
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have/have had "x"s in my screen name
[x] I cook well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I like Martha Stewart .
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] Im self conscious
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I have been drunk
[x] I have tried a cigarette
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ x] I bite my nails
[x] Gotten lost in the city
[x] Gone out in public in your underwear
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Been skydiving
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Egged a house/car
[x] Ding dong ditched someone
[x] Crashed into a car
[x ] Been fired
[x ] Been skinny dipping
[x ] Caused the windows to fog in a car


Have you ever...

[x] stolen a sign
[x] danced in the rain
[x] seen a shooting star
[x] proposed to anyone
[x] gotten stitches
[x] eaten Sushi
[x ] gotten the chicken pox
[x] ridden in a taxi
[x] went on a cruise ship
[x] driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] been on a plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[X] seen a movie more than 3 times
[x] been on stage
[x] gotten a black eye
[] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[ ] watched an entire baseball game on tv

Do you like...

[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in the car
[x] donuts
[x] animals
[x] coffee



[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[x] done something you swore never to do
[x] lied
[x] stole
[x] went behind your parent(s) back
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[x ] kept your new years resolution
[ x] forgot your new years resolution
[x ] met someone who changed your life
[x] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were.
[x] made a total fool of yourself
[x] met great people

Okay Ladies, This is a message to you to try to get it though your head that makeup doesn't make you beautiful, you're already beautiful and so this came from that. I find it difficult to convince a woman that God doesn't make mistakes! so when you say you need surgery or more make up you are just saying you are flawed! You're not flawed, you're beautiful and perfect just the way you are. They never listen to me for some reason....

V1
Who needs makeup
You were born flawless
Still you think
They can see to your heart
If you could only see
Through my eyes, you might find that

C
When your hair's a mess
And your makeup’s gone
You wanna hide from me
Like there's something wrong
You think I’m staring
At your flaws
Babe I’m staring cause
I can’t find one at all
I always find you beautiful

V2
Let me list the ways
You take my breath away
Like your Angel eyes or that smile
The way you hold me
When no ones around
The look I catch in your eyes

Its a work in progress and it was inspired by an event not too long ago... let me know what you think.

1.If you weren't doing what you're doing now, what would you be doing? Hanging with Mr. Cooper...err spending time with friends and people I care about, or buried in a good book.
2.If you escaped from jail and were running from the police, where would you go? I'm in Texas, so I'd have to say Mexico...haha. so cliche'
3.Your college budget only allows $2(or equivalent currency) for lunch; how do you spend it? $0.99 menu and some water
4.What song would you want them to play at your funeral?
I havent really thought about it that much.
5.If you joined the Peace Corps. where would you want them to send you? Wherever my help could be best used.
6.If you had a license to kill, who would be the first person you'd kill? I honestly abhor violence and try to stay away from it as much as possible, but thats kind of odd given my profession. I dont want to see anyone hurt.
7.What's your karaoke song? This would be telling..
8.Who's the hottest person you wouldn't have sex with for all the money in the world? This is a trick question...
9.If you could choose any place in the world to propose(marriage), where would it be? Germany, Notre Dame Cathedral
10. What's the worst injury you've ever sustained? I've broken bones, perforated internal organs and have split my brain with a stop sign, take your pick.
11.What's the most erotic thing you've ever done? Once again, that would be telling..
12.What's your drink? Iced Tea, Dr Pepper, Water, Beer, etc..
13.If you wrote a romance novel, what would be the names of the two main characters? Oh now this is tough, but I'd keep it simple, ' a young man' and a 'young woman' this way I'm not upsetting anyone, by naming names.
14.If you could re-name your old school, it would be called? Sky High.. haha.
15.The greatest masterpiece ever done by man is? to have children and to be a good father.
16.The crime of the century is? Yet to be done?
17.The ideal date would be? Amazing. something simple and yet so full of meaning.
18.Favorite 80's song? 'Come on Eileen' by Dexys Midnight Runner's
19.What did you wish you took in college? Everything, I dont think I'll ever stop striving for more knowledge. More foreign languages would be nice though.

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.
Loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves. "

~ Victor Hugo

27 Questions.. Another Survey, Another Day..

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? mmm... I haven't looked at a mirror yet, so I'll keep you posted on this one..
2. How much cash do you have on you? considering the fact I'm still in my jammies..none..
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? More! More! More?
4. Favorite planet? I'm kind of partial to this one, since it has that whole sustains life thing going for it.
5. Who is the 5th person on your missed call list on your mobile phone? Kathryn
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? umm, the generic one?
7. What shirt are you wearing? plain grey t-shirt
8. Do you "label" yourself? Label's? like freshness guaranteed? Consume product by this date? no, I dont label myself
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? none, but I've got some sketchers around here somewhere
10. Bright or Dark Room? for what? sleep, I like it dark, for other things, a little light helps.
11. How often do you clean out your belly button? umm, not very often, or when it comes to mind
12. Have you ever had a fart that smelled non-fart like? wtf is this question doing here?
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking with friends, instant messaging and writing an email or two.
14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? "Good luck today"
15. The closest 7-11? About 10 minutes away.
16. What's a word that you say a lot? umm.. hi? hello? yes?
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? We're leaving this blank for personal reasons.
18. Last furry thing you touched? the hair on my head? I think I need to get a haircut soon.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Does Tylenol and caffeine count? ooh and some Alchohol at a wedding I went to.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? I probably have at least one roll around here.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 5? haha I was an awesome 5 year old...err yeah.
22. Worst enemy? myself, I am my own worst enemy.
23. What cigarettes do you smoke? Doral menthol lights in a box, ooh wait, no thats not me...I dont smoke.
24. What's was the last thing you said to someone? goodnight?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly which would it be? It all depends on how fast I could fly, cause then I could charge people for personal lifts, not to mention sponsors and tv ads.. but I'd probably take the cash, there's always a catch to those free things and the cash seems the safest.
26. Do you like someone? Yes
27. The last song you listened to? whatever was on the radio last night, ooh wait no I remember listening to "Wake me up when September ends" or something like that on myspace last night.

please take note that I have added a link to my myspace.com page in the links above, this is to both help you and myself as I post there as well as here. Thank you all for taking the time to read and email me. I truly appreciate each and everyone of you. Have a great one!

http://www.myspace.com/onlyhughman

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?
my good friend, Haitham
2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
I would like to think so.
3) Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes
4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
Yes, who hasn't?
5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Haha, yes actually.
6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?
Yes, because I was a moron and antagonized it, most of the time they sting because you harass them and its a defense mechanism, just chill and go about your business.
7) How fast can you type?
fairly fast.
8) Are you afraid of the dark?
Not the dark, but sometimes of the things in the dark and my own imagination.
9) Eye color?
Brown
10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?
Yes.
11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
long time ago
12) Do you knock on wood?
Yes, but only for humors sake
13) Do you floss daily?
No, but I should consider it.
14) Do you wanna Fanta?
Haha, umm... is this a trick question?
15) Can you hula hoop?
no
16) Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yes
17) What do you want for Christmas?
Happiness
18) Do you know the Muffin Man?
You know I know the muffin man
19) Do you talk in your sleep?
I dont know, I'm asleep.
20) Who wrote the book of love?
I know the song, but I dont know who wrote it, most likely its the big guy upstairs.
21) Have you ever flown a kite?
I have so flown the best kites out there and I've had me some spectacular crashes.
22) Do you wish on your fallen lashes?
Sometimes, but its always the same wish.
23) Do you consider yourself successful?
Sometimes.
24) How many people are on your contact list of your cell?
Alot, I'm not counting...
25) Have you ever asked for a pony?
Haha, not exactly, a Horse yes, a pony no.
26) Plans for tomorrow?
Work, friends, caffeine, call the school, lots of stuff.
27) Can you juggle?
Life issues yes, little colored balls or bowling pins? no.
28) Missing someone now?
Yes
32) How are you feeling today?
Good, excited a little caffeineted..
34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
I've been sent home from school, does that count?
35) What are you lookin' forward to?
The new job, friends, life, the future..blah blah blah..
36) Have you ever crawled through a window?
Heck yeah, so many times its not funny
37) Have you ever eaten dog food?
not that I can recall, wait, I think I munched on a dog biscuit thinking it was a health bar once. I dont reccomend it.
38) Can you handle the truth?
Yes, I am stronger than the truth.
39) Do you like green eggs and ham?
Yes, Sam I am.
40) Any cool scars?
Chicks dig my scars... haha

1. I deleted it cause it didnt make any sense.
2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
my old boy scout T-shirt from like 15 years ago, haha, hey its moving day.
3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
Yes
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP 8?
Maybe...
5. FAVORITE STARBUCKS DRINK?
I like a basic black iced tea, but I've been known to surprise the barista's every now and then with a change up.
6. DO YOU HOLD GRUDGES?
No, there's no reason to hold hate or anger in your heart, in the end it hurts you more than it does the other person.
7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
at least 2, not many more, I'd like to think I'd make a good father.
8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Most of the time, but we all have our moments.
9. Do you make over 40k a year?
I have before, but I've realized that money isnt everything and there is more to life than material possessions and money.
10. What name would you want to have besides the one you have?
My name is a unique one, but sometimes I've wanted one that is easier to say.
---- where is question 11? ----
12. WHAT IS YOUR MOTHER'S NAME?
Cathy
13. What did you do for your last birthday?
Small party with friends and then another one with family and friends.
14. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE?
The "outdoor" ringtone from T-mobile.
15. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP?
7 a.m. I know, I'm weird, I should have slept in, its Sunday!!
16. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
I'm not telling... haha
17. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
several.
18. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
my hair is short, so there isnt a whole lot there to pull.
19. FAVORITE CITY?
Austin, Houston, lots that makes me smile about both of them.
20. FAVORITE COLOR?
Blue
21. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
umm.. yeah, there's not a whole lot that I can't wait to do
22. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD?
5 seconds ago.
23. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?
most of the time, but they're family so we have our moments.
24. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
I wish I didnt sacrifice so easily, If someone I care about asks me to do something I tend to agree, despite the fact that it might hurt me in the end.
25. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
college, a new car and 2 tickets to Europe
26. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Since, 02 Jan 1996 a little more than 10 years
27. Have you ever talked to Tom?
Yes, but it was a long time ago and I sent him some stuff about hate groups on myspace.
28. Last person you called?
my buddy Haitham, great guy and friend you should all get to know him, your life would be better for it.
---- where are question 29 and 30?? ----
31. Last thing you ate?
chicken
32. Your favorite month?
Spring weather, not too hot, but not cold either, that or Fall, for similar reasons.
33. Least favorite month?
none of them? its a month why wouldnt I like it?
34. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
a jacket?
35. Who is getting on your nerves right now?
No one really, though there is someone I'd like to talk to about a few things.
36. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
myspace or my gmail account, but I do tend to get a lot of my news from internet sources
37. LAST PERSON YOU INSTANT MESSAGED?
Melissa
38. Last person that made you sad?
nobody really, just situations. Some things that are meant to be and should be, sometimes you've just got to wait and work towards them.
39. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?
Yes, I would. I have already made a promise that I would die for you.
40. FAVORITE DRINK?
Iced Tea? Dr. Pepper? Water?
---- question 41 and 42? ----
43. Have you been to Europe?
That's Classified.
44. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
I dont hate anyone, so if someone I knew passed away I would be sad and respectful.
45. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE?
No, but I have thought about it.

50 Question survey for your amusement.

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Packing for the big move and loading the truck.
2. When is the last time you filled up your gas tank?
couple of days ago I think.
3. What is the most amount of money you spent in one store?
I honestly dont know, but if you count Sun and ski sports, then its over $500
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
A couple of blank CDR's from a multipack
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
a couple of weeks ago.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope, I'm free toe-ing it... haha..
7. Do you have a car worth over $5,000?
I'd like to think so.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
Last night
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope, not even sure whats out.
10. Are you popular?
Who isn't?
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Coke
12. What was the last thing you mailed in the mail?
a letter.
13. Do you wash your car?
I will when it needs it, but its pollen season here in Texas, so I could wash it, but 5 min later it would be dirty again
14. Last fast food you ate?
chicken
15. Where were you last week at this time?
I was spending time with someone I care about.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Yes, Socks, slacks, dress shirts, undershirts
17. What bank do you use?
One of them big fancy ones with the atm's all over the place.
18. Do you own any land?
My family does, the only land I've ever owned is sticking to my shoes.
19. What do you want to be when you "grow up"?
Happy, A father, a husband, someone that people can look up to.
20. Your dream vacation?
Europe
21. Last boat ride you went on?
Deep sea fishing with some friends.
22. How old are your parents?
50's and 60's
23. Are you in love?
Yes.
24. Do you have any single friends?
Yes.
25. Last play you saw?
Shakespeare in the park in Austin, Tx
26. Have you been to New York?
A couple of times.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
unknown at this time, though if you know me, then you have a pretty good idea of where I'll wind up.
28. Last concert you went to?
I cant remember.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
hmm... good question
30. Ever go to camp?
Yes and I have gone camping and been a Summer and Winter Camp Counselor
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
No and I think I did alright with it
32. What is your current GPA?
3.85
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Hardly ever, I take showers regularly and so I dont need to cover myself in scent.
34. Are you hungry?
I could eat something.
35. Where is your best friend (s) located?
Houston
36. Do you own a cowboy hat?
Yes, two actually. haha
37. Do you have a tan?
A slight farmers tan, but its still early in the season
38. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
Not much older, but its not just my choice.
39. Do you collect anything?
books?
40. Is this quiz annoying?
Pretty much, yet I find myself pressing on, just out of spite
41. Last time you got pulled over?
A few years ago I think.
42. Ever been arrested?
nope
43. Been to Mexico for Spring Break?
Not that I can recall
44. Do you like hot sauce?
Sure, who doesnt?
45. What is your cell phone's ringtone?
Standard outdoor cel phone ring tone
46. Do you need to do laundry?
I think I could always have something to wash. though its not a big deal at this time.
47. How many friends do you have?
664 on myspace and more outside of it, I actually know quite a lot of them. haha.
48. Are you someones best friend?
I would like to think so.
49. Are you rich?
With love, friends and family. Material possessions aren't love.
50. When was your last paycheck?
A couple of days ago.

Last night I had the opportunity to share in a friends happiness. My good friend Michelle was married last night to a great guy named Adrienne. The ceremony was held at Ella's Garden here in Tomball, it was a small and simple gathering. Mostly family and a few close friends on both sides. Michelle looked beautiful and so happy. I can only hope that one day I get to celebrate something as momentous as a wedding, starting your life together with someone you love can be a bit daunting and yet still exciting. All those new experiences, lots of firsts that are yet to be done and experienced. I wish them all the best for a long and happy life together.

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails."

"Compassion means we are willing to give love when we have been given hate, to forgive, to consciously go beyond our self-interest and bridge the gap of separation that is so prevalent in human society."

2 quotes, that I happened to come across that ring true with my own thoughts and the way I try to live my life. Simply think about it and you'll understand.

I haven't truly posted here in awhile. Yes, there have been postings, but nothing that actually touches what I'm really feeling or experiencing in my life right at this moment. I am in a state of transition, of moving forward and a lot of positive things are happening, mostly within the past week or so.

There is one thing I am confused about, I cant really go into it, but there is someone close to me and things were going so well and now... there is a wall of silence, like I'm being ignored and I dont know why? Can you explain it to me? Just give me a call if you still read this and let me know whats going on.

I've recently gotten another job and I'm excited about that, I turned down several offers that would pay me a lot more money, heck almost more than twice what I will be making, but this will allow me to go back to school and work towards completing my degree and in the long run I will be better for it.

So I'm going back to school, again... We shall see how that works out and if the Army decides to pull me away from my life again to send me where they will. I dont know whats going to happen from a daily basis and that always tends to stress me out, its a constant thought in my head. will I get the call today? or tomorrow? damn I hate not knowing.

I'm helping my parents out, they dont get around as well as they used to and they need the help. I'm helping them move and will be staying with them for awhile while they get used to their new place. Hopefully this move back home of mine doesnt last much longer. I love my family, I truely appreciate them, but I've learned to live on my own and appreciate my own space and I need that.

My family, my sister and brother, my nieces and nephew all mean so much to me, they are a part of my life I could never live without. Yes, we clash and tend to butt heads from time to time my siblings and I, but they are family. My nieces and nephew couldnt be more perfect, they're growing so fast and constantly amaze me with their new discoveries about the world. They are an inspiration, they keep me going.

My friends, what could I do without you? you have been there and continue to be there and I'm hoping that I give as much as I recieve from you all. Each of you brings so much life to my life and that I thank you for.

Well, I need to get going, a friend of mine is getting married this evening and I've got to look my best for the wedding, Thanks for reading all. Have a great one!

Hugh ~ will teach you to ~ Talk in 20s style slang

'What will your business card say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

A friend sent me this:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.


Whether its true or not, it does have meaning. I care about you all and I appreciate everything about you and who you all are.

For you, you know who you are, you know my feelings havent changed. call me.

Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you...

And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
'Cause I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing

And I dare you to forget
the marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
Now I could make this obvious,
and you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...

And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
'Cause I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing

And I don't think that you know
I said I don't think you know
I said I don't think you know what your missing


This is a little something I'm working on, but its just a rough draft of sorts and has no bearing on my current situation. I just tend to write to write and when I hear a piece of someone elses conversation, often a line or a sentence will present itself and the work will go from there.

What would you do? You make the choice! Don't look for a punch line; there isn't one! Read it anyway. My question to all of you is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children,the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:

When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?"

Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said,

"We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart.

The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. ..>

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.

As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!"

Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team,who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time.


He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.

Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay" ..>

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.

That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.

Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!



AND, NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people think twice about sharing. The crude,vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed. If you're thinking about forwarding this message,chances are that you're probably sorting out the people on your address list that aren't the"appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up that opportunity to brighten the day of those with us the least able, and leave the world a little bit colder in the process? A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

Sometimes, I miss being a kid...
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONESSS
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
Wait.
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast members of all that.
Kenan & Kel.
doug.
magic school bus.
flash forward.
pete and pete.
legends of the hidden temple.
hey dude.
dinosaurs.
pinky and the brain.
blossom.
hangin with mr.copper.
wishbone.
bill-nye the science guy.
kablamm.
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
the busy world of richard scary
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

Sometimes I miss being a kid, all those things and no cares in the world, when I could disapear into my imagination and a good book. Sometimes being all grown up is tough, but I have good friends and people I care about and we still enjoy goofing off and having a good time and I still have more than one best friend.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

riiight, these are so cheesy can they even be close to being true? Some are and yet some don't even come close to the mark. Sometimes I wish the world worked this way, that things that were meant to happen, happened. But in fact, the things that are right and good and that are meant to be dont always happen and thats the truth. You see something wrong in the world and want to correct it, so you try and sometimes you'll succeed and sometimes you'll fail, but the thing is, you tried. You put forth the effort to fight for something that is true and beautiful. You only get one shot at this life, make it what you want, go for what you want and let the people in your life know that you care about them and want to help them along the way.

Somehow I went out last night, I was tired and I almost got into a wreck. I wound up at a Christmas charity party at Starbucks (I hadn't been there in almost a week) with friends and they had a raffle for the charity and I won twice in a row, lucky me. haha. I ran into more people and it was just one more conversation after another.

Then I came home, talked to a friend on IM for a bit, tried to sleep... had some troubling dreams again and woke up and smacked my head into the wall. I'm not sleeping very well lately.I think I grind my teeth in my sleep too and my mouth frickin hurts when I wake up.

Duty calls and I have to be in my dress uniform tomorrow, I need to sleep, but I can't seem to get to sleep lately. The Army is messing with me again. They're talking about calling me back to active duty, but this time they're a little more serious about it. If so, then that makes my plans for college next semester void. The Army has been keeping me busy lately, I've had to work on my background for the last 15 years since my security clearance is coming up for review. I've had to go back and list tons of people on the damn thing and whoever they pick to interview, well lets just say that some of those people are going to get a little shock, but it can't be helped, I had to put their names down.

These past few weeks have been interesting, I've been trying to get out and hit different hangouts around town, not just with friends, but alone too. I've met some new and interesting people. I have been on dates with other girls, but for some reason something is always missing when I'm trying to get to know them. Usually I listen and can converse with almost anyone, but for some reason with these women I just can't focus or even get interested. I wind up wondering why I'm even there and then I'm honest with them and tell them they're really nice, but I'm just not feeling any kind of connection. Some have taken it better than others. I've even run into several of my ex's and we've talked and I've even gone out with a couple of them, but it's still the same. It's nice to see them and catch up, but thats about it. Some of them have wanted more from the meeting and well that's just not something I'm willing to do right now.

I've started trying to write again, my friend Aaron aka Morpheus has been a bit of an inspiration to me, he's writing and working on his music and that kind of gives me the drive and inspiration to pick up the pen again. What does that mean? well you'll probably see me with my customary black binder again, that is if you see me at all...

I've got to get some sleep, I have to be up in about 3 hours and dressed to impress, If you've got the time come by Starbucks on kuykendahl and louetta tomorrow evening, you'll get the chance to see me in my dress uniform.

I hope everyone's Thanksgiving went well and that you're holidays are filled with everything that makes you happy.

And if you still read this... you know my feelings haven't changed.

Life can only be understood backwards, but must be lived forwards. - Soren Kierkegaard

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that things are difficult. - Seneca

I have been reading a lot lately. look for an update on whats been going on in my life coming soon! Have a great one all!

I don't know if you still read this or not, if you're even wondering how I'm doing and what's going on in my life. I am a man of my word and I have done everything I can to show you how much I still love you and want you in my life. Sometimes I hear song lyrics and they express the words better than I can say them. Lately it's been both Keith Urban and Collin Raye that seem to say the words that I want to say to you. This is for you.

It's that feeling that someone
Is standing behind me
And I turn around and there's no one there
And it's the sensation
That someone just whispered
Yeah and I still hear your voice but you're not really here
Your memory is like a ghost
And my heart is it's host

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

You said you'd love me forever
Then you said it's over
And left me without the missing link
I thought I'd forget you
But I guess I forgot to
And lately I've been too confused to think
When I reach for someone new
It's like I'm touching you

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you

In everything that moves
In everything I do

I can still feel you just as close as skin
Every now and then
All by myself, in a crowded room, or my empty bed
There's a place you've touched
With your love no one gets close to
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you
Oh I can still feel you

Ladies and Gentleman, Boys and Girls I love you all and I'm thankful for the great comments and e-mail I've received from everyone this year. You're the fuel to my fire! All the rumors of my demise are untrue. I have not yet begun to fight!

This is just beginning...

Oh and I expect to see all of you tomorrow morning, Thurs Nov 24th at 9am at Strack Middle School's Football field (Which is located in Spring, Texas on Kuykendahl just north of Louetta)for an Annual Thanksgiving Day Football game. You can come out and watch me get tossed around with a bunch of the guys. Be there.

EVERYONE has something special, something unique to give to the world. Something that is totally them, 100% who they are. I think that when you find this part of yourself, when you acknowledge what it is that lies in your heart then your life will begin to fall into place. Believe me when I say that whatever you have, someone out there will NEED. GIVE freely, without reservation for the greater whole, SHARE because you NEED to. YOU may be the light in someone else's dark place. You may point someone in the right direction, you may be giving them exactly what they need WHEN they need it. Or you may plant the seeds of knowledge so they can grow in their own time.

In a society that focuses on what we recieve take time out to think about what you give.

Nothing much to report tonight, The Army kicked my tail today and made more vague threats about remobilizing me. I just signed up for classes too, so it figures that they're going to try to take me away again. I'm tired though, the day took more out of me than I thought it did. A couple of Highlights, I got to see my brother and my niece cheyanne was over when I got home. She's such an angel it's amazing. She sat in my lap and chowed down on an apple while my brother and I watched TV together. He and I don't get to spend a lot of time together due to conflicting schedules and it was nice to see him. I treasure my family even though they get on my nerves at times I love them still. I need to get some sleep soon. I have to get up early again for the Army and who knows what they're going to have me doing on a Monday?! I'm just so tired of it all sometimes...

In my dreams...

It doesn’t hurt to see her eyes
Or feel her lips on mine… no longer
For once I thought she hurt my pride
And took what’s mine… surrender

It’s the dreams we could have had
That pains me most inside… forever
To feel her warmth, her breath, her mind
Took what’s left and set it side… remember

I’ve said goodbye to destiny twice…
Now I’m afraid… to find a new fate…

‘Coz here I stand… here at one corner…
Biding my time… trying to hide…
While clutching a wooden sword…

And there you are… there at one corner…
Biding your time… drinking your wine…
While clutching a wounded bird…

Through gray clouds I found a light
Brought me songs I thought had died… no longer
I wish I were… I wish I might…
Feel her arms in mine… surrender

So today I went to Huntsville to visit Sam Houston State University I wasn't sure of the directions and I got there a little late, but with enough time to check in and run up the stairs to my first group, which consisted of me and 2 other people. We toured the campus and facilities and generally got to know the lay of the land. It was rather short and rushed.

The drive up brought back a lot of memories, not only from the last trip up there, but also from when I went to Sam back in 1997. A lot has changed since then, not everything, though some things that were new then were either old or closed down now. After the Sam day I drove around looking for a place to eat and got a little lost, but that's okay, I found some things I had forgotten and visited some new places.

I came back to Spring and of course went to Starbucks to pour over all the accumulated crap and schwag that I had picked up on Campus. Most of it is useless paper mainly garnered towards freshman, but I'm a Nontraditional/Former/Transfer student, they weren't sure how to deal with me. I ran into an old friend at Starbucks, one I hadn't seen for a long time, She's doing well I hear, working on her Masters. We sat and talked for several hours, exchanged numbers and said we'd talk again. It was good to see her and to know she is doing well.

My niece Haley was in the Tomball Parade today, unfortunately I couldn't go, but I hear there are rolls of film waiting to be developed! My other niece, Cheyanne, and my sister, Vicky, went to Nacadoches today for a girl scout day at a camp up there. both of the girls, Haley and Cheyanne, are involved in girl scouting and I think it's a good program, though I wonder why they have to go so far away to participate in a Day Camp? Aren't there any programs closer to Houston?

What next? I have the Army for the next few days, though I need to go ahead an register for classes, thats a very important thing which I think I will get to now. So this is goodnight for now, here's wishing you all a Safe journey and a peaceful nights sleep.

You Lie Awake.

I sit here on familiar ground waiting to release, late again I find myself caressed by memories. Ancient slights and stains upon the frame works of my heart, I remember watching all my dreams devoured and torn apart. YEARS OF SILENCE finally gave me a voice, a choice to off load the hurts I thought I would take to my GRAVE. A curse upon my head. My bed is still un-made. But to ingrained memory I find myself a slave. INSIDE MYSELF I crave, you did not LAY ME DOWN to die. Now I remember and ingest all the SWEET LIES.

An artist is a creator, a maker. Someone who can inspire who can LIGHT a fire in a place thats dark. Even in a place inside your heart. An artist has power, the ability to mould and shape, to exorcise your SHADOWS and to take you BEYOND FAITH. To recognise THAT is a blessing but to ignore is just a waste. When you can taste the connection between two open minds, open souls, spirits whole, it unfolds a bold new idea. That the ability and knowledge to colour our lives has always been right HERE.

I've never been a fan of the PITY-ME party, of the shitty-me party but the Gritty-me party is where I normally am. HONESTY is just POLICY in an artists open hand. Life can deal you many blows, take you down dark roads, into black street shows that disclose all the holes in this corrupted state. But the blows you DEAL YOURSELF are the deciphers of your FATE. You can BREAK but be rebuilt in the image of your SELF, your wealth lies WITH YOU. I want to stay here forever and ever I can't control the way I feel and I don't know what to DO.

DON'T save me. I want this. A lesson learned in beauty, my pen my therapist. A twist in circumstance and a bitter wrist, a blood red fist, a dry lipped kiss. LICK MY LIPS. I know I'm missed. Experience is inevitable and pain a subtle fix. We let go of the EGO and we truly find our bliss.

You make

You create

Every day

You lie awake.

Nobody's awake.....there is only me....
So I write a letter....A letter for all to see.
You may or may not get this, but either way it's fine.
I just wanted to kiss you.....and touch you on your spine.

Caress you softly now on those tender lips.
I yearn for your affection....your cute little face I miss....
I'll lay down on my bed now, the sun is creeping near.
You're the last thing on my mind tonight....tonight I love you dear....

With Love,
Hugh

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Hurricane Help for Schools, U.S. Department of Education.

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Congratulations are in order! There is a new baby Dolphin in Chicago


http://www.nbc5.com/irresistible/5306108/detail.html?z=dp&dpswid=1260382&dppid=65193
UPDATED: 6:18 pm CST November 11, 2005 CHICAGO -- A new addition to Brookfield Zoo's dolphin family was announced Friday. Late in the afternoon on Nov. 3, Atlantic bottlenose dolphin Tapeko, 23, gave birth at the zoo to a healthy 30- to 35-pound, 3-foot-long female calf, a news release from the zoo said Friday. "We are cautiously optimistic," zoo marine mammal curator Melinda Pruett-Jones said in the release. While dolphin births are not considered successful until the calf is at least a year old, Pruett-Jones said the newborn has exhibited several behaviors considered positive, including regularly nursing following the birth. For about two weeks, zoo staff will observe the newborn calf and mother around the clock, according to the release. As the first year is critical to a newborn dolphin, the zoo staff will likely wait a month or two before naming the calf, zoo spokeswoman Sondra Katzen said. The newborn is Tapeko's third child and the first for the father, Hastings, according to Katzen. In addition to the newborn, Tapeko's other family members include daughters Kaylee, 12, and Noelani, 2, and grandson, Micco, 4, all at Brookfield Zoo, she said. Tapeko and her newborn will be available for public viewing at the zoo's Seven Seas underwater gallery beginning Saturday, the release stated.

Sunday was a good day. I continued to work on some projects I've had in the works, not just school, but other ones as well though I won't go into that right now. I've got a lot of stuff coming down the pipe for the Army. I don't know if I'll be around for the holidays, which sucks, I really enjoy being with family and friends for the holidays. Family is important to me, but unfortunately the Army has other plans for me. We'll just have to see how that goes.

I went to dinner with some good friends, Stan, Sally, Patrick and Andrew and while there I ran into an old friend Audry and we must have talked for something like 30 or more minutes just catching up on old times and what's been going on in our lives. It was good to see her again and I'm glad things are going well for her.

Tomorrow I've got things to get done, phone calls to make and people and places to go to, so goodnight to one and all, sweet dreams to you know who, I know I still dream of you.

In the last 24 Hrs have you...
1. Had sex: No
2. Bought Something: Yes
3. Gotten sick: No
4. Sang: Yes, in the car
5. Been kissed: No
6. Eaten something: Yes
7. Talked to an ex: Yes
8. Missed someone: Yes

Last person who...

1. Slept/Layed in your bed with you: She knows who she is, I don't need to tell the world. How I miss the way she feels next to me though
2. Saw you cry: It's a toss up between the girl above and my parents
3. Made you cry: I can't answer that right now.
4. Went to the movies with? Zach and my brother Charlie
5. You went to the mall with: Myself?

Have You Ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yes
2. Got in a fight with your pet: yes, if you mean wrestling for a chew toy
3. Been to New York: Yes
4. Been to Mexico: Yes
5. Been to Canada: no
6. Been to Europe: Maybe...
7. Been to South America: no

1. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes, I love someone very much
2. What book are you reading: Welcome to the Monkeyhouse by Kurt Vonnegut
3. Worst feeling in the world: Rejection
4. Future KIDS names: Unknown
5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Not anymore, I used to have a horse, still do.
6. What's under your bed: Shoes and I'm not sure.
7. Favorite sports to watch: Football, baseball, Hockey
8. Location: The Apartment
9. Piercing/Tattoos: Not going to happen.
10. Do you drink: Sometimes
11.Where do you want to get married: Someplace small, local with a few family and friends. You know the people that matter.
12. Who do u really hate: No one.
13. Do you have a job: Yes.
14. Do you like being around people: All the time
15. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? unfortunately, yes
16. Have you ever cried: Yes
17. Are you lonely right now? No, but I do miss someone
18. Song that's stuck in your head: None right now.
19. Played strip poker: Maybe...
20. Been drunk for more than 2 days straight?: constantly? No, but I have gotten drunk two nights in a row, It's not a big deal for me though
21. Done an all-nighter: Yes, several times
22. Been on radio/TV: TV Several times, an extra in the movies, Radio ticket giveaways, and have even called into morning radio shows a couple of times.
23. Been in a mosh-pit: yes
24. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Yes, I don't judge a person by who they chose to love, but by who they are as people.

Just got in from a night that went particularly well, though interesting things had occurred. I was set to meet up with friends at starbucks, people I hadn't seen in awhile. Someone showed up that I didn't expect to see, it was good to see her and even better to talk with her. I just wish it could happen more often. The night progressed and we moved the festivities to Molly Maguires an Irish Pub right up the street from the kuykendahl and louetta starbucks, it's close to 1960. The Blaggers were playing and We shot darts, played Ping Pong and talked surfing, Politics, Society and Race relations, though I have little experience with surfing and it's been years since I've even tried. There's just something about being unable to control oneself in all that water. I just can't seem to handle deep water. Anyway, the night progressed, drinks were bought and drunk, though I maintained my composure. I have a very international group of friends and we've all got different views and perspectives based upon our upbringings and life experiences. I love learning and exploring new ideas and viewpoints. It was getting late and some of us were getting a bit hungry so we wound up at Denny's for another couple of hours and that was interesting, more conversation ensued. good times.

I need to try to sleep, However; I've had caffeine, spoke with a beautiful woman whose mere presence ignites a fire within me, Spent time with great friends, A few pints of Killians Red, Some Denny's late night food and more caffeine. so good luck to me for getting to sleep anytime soon.

Your Birthdate: June 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem. You're good at so much - you never know what to do. Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long. You are destined for a life of travel and fun. Your strength: Your likeability Your weakness: You never feel satisfied Your power color: Bright yellow Your power symbol: Asterisk Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Alphabet of ME (Sort of)
[A is for age:] 28
[B is for booze of choice:] Ale
[C is for career:] Soldier/Student
[D is for your dog's name:]
[E is for essential items to bring to a party:] People, or a couple of good jokes.
[F is for favorite song at the moment:] There are a lot, but I like Nickelback's Photograph, or Rascal Flats Skin
[G is for favorite game:] Video game - Halo2, Cardgame - Blackjack/Poker
[H is for hometown:] Born in Dallas,Tx, but I grew up in Spring/Houston,Tx
[I is for instruments you play:] I've got mad kazoo skills and I can sing like a rockstar in the shower or the car
[J is for jam or jelly you like:] Grape or Strawberry
[K is for kids?] Someday
[L is for last kiss?] I'm not telling
[M is for mom's job:] Sales
[N is for name of your crush:] She knows who she is
[O is for overnight hospital stays:] Too many to remember
[P is for phobias:] I have this fear of success or is it being happy? So much so that I tend to ruin good things and push people away without even realizing what I'm doing.
[Q is for quotes you like:] "If you never ask the question, the answer is automatically No" or "Do or Do not, there is no try"
[R is for relationship that lasted the longest]: a family relationship = lifetime, Friends, something like 20+ years, and as for a love relationship 2 years
[S is for sexual preference:] Female,
[T is for time you wake up:] it depends on the day and what I've got planned.
[U is for underwear:] Clean, Boxers, some boxer briefs
[V is for vegetable you love:] edible?
[W is for worst habit:] I think too much at times, sometimes I just need to learn to let it all go.
[X is for x-rays you've had:] too many to remember them all
[Y is for yummy food you make:] I can cook almost anything, but I'm good at Italian and Mexican
[Z is for zodiac sign:] Cancer

Just got in, I'm not tired so I'm going to sit here and write. I haven't been able to sleep lately and when I do I have these vivid dreams and I toss and turn, I wind up waking myself up. anyway. enough of that nonsense.

I saw you tonight, I didn't mean to, I wasn't even looking for you and when I did, well lets just say I kept going. I'd like to be able to sit down and talk to you again, to see how things are going with you and to tell you how things are going with me. Just normal everyday stuff. It's your call though.

I went downtown tonight to Cafe Brasil's on Westheimer, it's a great coffee house similar to starbucks, yet they serve great food, alchohol and have live bands. The crowd there is older too so you don't have to mess with all of the kids running around. I went to hang out with my friend Aaron, Esteban, Timbo, Crystal and Beth among a few others who showed up unexpectedly. It was a great night, there was a jazz band playing who were friends with Aaron and they sounded pretty good. I made some new friends and generally had a great time. It's too bad the drive down there is so long or else I'd make it my new hang out. I don't think one should mix coffee and alchohol. I was tired on the drive home, but now I'm wide awake. I should get off of here and try to get some sleep.

Today is Veterans day, Thank you to all who have served, to those who have given up their freedoms to protect ours.

Freedom isn't free, a lot of men and women have paid for what you're enjoying. Take the time to thank a veteran and live your life well, don't waste it.

Today I went to my niece's school for their Veterans day presentation, it was great. Imagine if you will a bunch of 1st through 4th graders singing the national anthem and pledging their allegiance. Some of it was too cute for words. It made my day. I love those girls, they're the best niece's ever!

An update on the life situation, Since previously posting.

I am still looking for a job, but the type of job has taken on a different meaning, I'm going to focus more on the new degree plan, which oddly enough when I take a look at the past few years and what I have been doing as well as what I know about the world, well it just seemed to be the obvious choice, especially since several people as well as the Army have suggested it. Now all I've got to do is work towards it, There is someone in my life I can talk to about this, but we're in a non-talking phase right now. I hope this will end soon, I need her knowledge and experience. Though if I have to do without then I will deal with that.

Oddly enough I am actually closer to this degree with all the courses I've taken than I am to my previous one, English. I've come to the realization that I can write and I love to read, but I've always known I would never make a living at it. The one story I do have takes so much out of me to write that I tend to stay away from it for long periods of time.

Anyway, I've gotten a lot of paperwork together from tons of different sources, i.e. colleges, the army and I even had to go by my old high school. Funny enough they still remembered me there and it still smelled the same. weird.

I will be returning to Sam Houston State for a variety of reasons. The first being that I already have credits from there and the second being That North Harris has a joint admissions agreement with SHSU. This means I can be enrolled at Sam and still take classes at any of the North Harris colleges and they will count as Sam courses. Nifty eh? I thought so too.

I've taken the time to get some perspective, I know I cannot worry about things in life that I have no control over. So I shall endeavor to not worry and to just let things go as they will. Of course I want what I want, but thats another story.

In other news the Army is still being its naturally retiscient self. My family life is just like everyone else's (dysfunctional). My friends are great and I regret not having enough time for them. So to end this, it is what it is. goodnight and hears wishing you all the best in life.

1. What is your middle name? Hudson
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? Camo boxers, I like to call it my own way of going Commando
3. What are you listening to right now? a Suzuki commercial and the hum of my laptop
4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 01
5. What was the last thing you ate? Enchilada's
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Blue
7. How is the weather right now? Muggy and Humid, not very Novemberish.
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My friend Sally
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Height, eyes, the way they carry themselves, confidence is key.
10. Favorite type of food? Mexican, I could eat it everyday
11. Do you drink? On occasion.
12. Do you smoke? No
13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? Yes, but all events have been reported to have been positive
14. Hair color? light brown
15. Eye color? brown
16. Do you wear contacts? I have before, glasses now, considering contacts again.
17. Favorite Holiday? All of them?
18. Favorite Month? Yes.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? yes.
20. What was the last movie you watched? Some late night flick starring nobody.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? Tuesday, haha.
22. Are u too shy to ask someone out? Sometimes, it all depends on the mood and the moment, but if I see someone I like and I click with them, then I'm not shy at all.
23. Do you wish someone would ask you out? Sometimes.
24. hugs or kisses? Yes.
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Sometimes both.
26. Do you want your friends to respond? Sure. It couldn't hurt
27. Who is most likely to respond? Someone completely random
28. Who is least likely to respond? Aaron, Zach or Drew, those guys are never online
29. What books are you reading? I've just finished three, 'The Last Samurai' (not the movie), 'Memoirs of a Geisha' and 'Death in Midsummer' right now I'm reading course catalogs and prepping for next semester as well as brushing up on some Army Manuals for a class I have to teach.
30. Piercings? none.
31. Favorite Movie? Way too many to name.
32. Favorite baseball Team? This is a difficult choice, I used to not follow Baseball, but over the years I've been checking out several teams, I'd like to reserve my answer for a later date.
33.What were you doing before this?? Reviewing degree plans and drinking tea at my local starbucks.
34. Any pets? not since my dog died.
35. aim? Sometimes, other times I just lay down some good suppressive fire.
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? I like to keep my options open, so plain, salted and sometimes buttered
37. Dogs or cats? either
38. Favorite Flower? Ones I can give to the people that matter most in my life.
39.Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to?? Yes, plenty of times.
What happened to question 40?
41.Have you ever loved someone? Yes.
42. Who would you like to see right now?? Kathryn
43. Are you still friends with your ex?? I would like to think so.
44. Have you ever fired a gun? Yes.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? I love to travel.
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Right
47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be??
In what way? I don't think I can answer this question right now without upseting someone, so I'm going to take a raincheck
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3, I need something to hold onto at night
49. Are you missing someone? Yes.
50. Do you have a Tattoo? No.
51. Whats your favorite Game? Board or Video? there are so many choices. It all depends on who I'm playing with.
52. Whats Your full name? Thats Classified Soldier.
53. What color are your toe nails? All Natural, No additives or preservatives.
54. Favorite Chips? Baked Lays or Pringles, I'm not much of a chip person
55. Favorite Candy? Cinnamon flavored gum
56. Favorite Soda? Dr. Pepper
57. Most Desirable Thing about the opposite sex? The ability to communicate
58. mexican food or chinese? I could eat Mexican every day.
59. 3 top people you think of all the time?
1. Kathryn
2. My family
3. My friends
60. What do you want to be when you grow up? Happy, If I'm happy then everything else is in its place.
61. Cheetoes Or Doritoes? Doritos
62. Mc Donalds Or Burger King? If I have to choose, McDonalds, but I'm not one for fast food.
63. Swimming or Running? Both, though I've always had this thing about water, there have been several times that I've had some close calls with water and drowning.
64. Etnies or Vans? Vans, there shoes right?
65. Straight, Gay , or Bi- Sexual? This Cowboy is a straight shooter, damn that was corny.
66. Last Question.. MTV or VH1? Does it really matter? they're both corporate music television stations, so they show the same stuff.

I've been revamping my priorities. I'm going to focus more on completing my degree than heading towards a career. To that end, I have contacted several professors and advisors at multiple institutions and have visited the Tomball Campus to begin talking to an advisor. I have considered returning to Sam Houston State since that is where I started my collegiate career.

I just hope the Army doesn't interfere with my new degree plan, though they have helped show me where I want to focus my studies. I had wanted to talk to a friend of mine about it, I don't want there to be any confusion with my choice. The Army is going to be sending me to some classes that aren't available to civilians so this new focus is going to put me into an advantage that others don't have, too bad it's top secret right now so I can't talk about it.

Tonight I saw Star Wars episode III at a friends place and let me tell you, I could have figured out a better way to spend almost 3 hours, rather than watching a movie at a strange girls place. I don't get Lucas, he could have done a better job, the first three prequals are too much of a love story for my tastes and don't even come close to the original three which are now the middle three. Anyway, they're just movies. The night was okay, but it wasn't where I wanted to be so now I'm home and I've got a lot on my mind. There's someone in my life that I care about deeply, yet I can't tell her how I feel, even though she already knows. I miss you.

Today was fun, I spent it with family and with others. My nieces continue to amaze me, despite all the adversity in their young lives, the constant moving around and uncertainty they are both beautiful and highly intelligent young ladies. My niece Haley's lowest grade on her report card was a 92?! Amazing and Cheyanne is doing equally as well in her classes. I just hope they don't get too bored with school, they're teachers don't send any homework with them? Thats crazy, whats going to happen when they get older and are faced with homework and other take home assignments? I want so much for them to succeed. I know there are online resources, such as Discovery.com and the various homeschool sites, but I'm going to also look into picking up some books I've seen at walmart and other places for them to do at home. I think this will help them, but I'm going to give the stuff to my sister and let her take control from there.

I love her with everything I have and despite everything thats happened I still love her. I will always love her and no one else. she doesn't know how much these past few years have torn me apart by being away from her. I tried to let her know how I felt. I have loved her all this time.

It's so hard for me to give you what you want, but I will because I do care about you. Tonight you sat across from me and I didn't say anything because I told you I wouldn't. You don't know how hard it was for me. I want to hear your voice, I want to know you're okay. I want you in my life, but I can't tell you these things because I made a promise to you.

I still love you.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Charles Schultz Philosophy, The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point.

1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.

How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Acheivements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

Easier?! The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life. "Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia."(Charles Schultz)

These past couple of days have been long ones for me. I have been helping a friends family out, He was called away suddenly to Fort Hood and his wife is very sick, so I've been helping out by clearing limbs from the yard, moved furniture and painted the living room (They have new furniture being delivered tomorrow, made dinner then cleaned up, helped with the kids (he's got two great boys, Halloween was a bit wet, but still fun).

On the way home however, I stopped at a starbucks and ran into the friend that I had previously posted the apology too, I didn't know they would be there, I wasn't looking for them to be there, I was just tired and on my way home and thought a little caffeine might help with the long drive. I just said hi, when I should have just turned and walked away. I wasn't going to stay. I had made a promise and was going to stick to it. I didn't get the opportunity.

If you read this, I'm sorry. I didn't know you would be there. You don't have to worry about me showing up there again. I won't ever go to that starbucks again.

It's been a year since my grandfather passed away and the pain and loss still haunts me. I miss him and his laughter, his smiles, his purple suit. He was a success in life, he had a loving wife and family and he lived to help others. I still have some wooden toys that he made me as a child, nothing spectacular, a wooden train and a airplane, but they are special to me. I miss you grandpa.

I have one grandparent left now, my grandmother, his wife. I don't know how she has the strength to keep going, she's tough and has family beside her. I know it's hit her hard and all I or any of us can do is to support and love her.

I love my family very much, I hope they know this. I'm not always open with my feelings, I tend to hold things inside. Mostly from fear of being hurt and it's a big part of why I started writing, it's an outlet for me, it helps get my thoughts, feelings and emotions out into a jumbled mess, sometimes it doesn't read right or isn't very clear or make sense. It's all free flowed writing just as a form of release, sometimes its not even clear to me even days afterward. I wonder what was I thinking?

I need to get going, there are some appointments today that I can't miss.

An update on whats been going on in my life or something like that for those of you who might still read this.

I'm still looking for a civilian job and living at my parents. I'm living off my savings`and the occasional odd job. I'm just trying to keep busy and motivated so that when I do get another job I'll be able to make the transition that much easier.

I have been interviewing at MD Anderson. In fact I've had a total of 5 interviews so far and I'm still waiting to hear from them. MD Anderson isn't the only place I've been interviewing, I've been going to career fairs and employment agencies all over town. I'd like to stay on the Northside because of traffic, but it seems that the opportunities aren't on the Northside.

Once I get the job or when the New Year rolls around I'll be enrolling into classes again at either UH-Downtown or SHSU, I've been exploring opportunities at both institutions and at the University center for North Harris and talking with friends who have knowledge of each. I don't know about getting a professional position and how that would influence my education.

Would getting a fulltime job affect my studies? undoubtedly, but I need to make enough to survive on, but does that mean I should get a place of my own or stay here at my parents? I can't continue to stay here, we keep getting into arguments and yet we have moments where everything seems to be great, I just need my space and they don't seem to realize that at times.

The situation with my unit is one of constant flux. I just don't know what they want from me, when I talk to them about being reactivated they tell me they need people, but they haven't started the paperwork yet to get me mobilized. They go back and forth with sending me on missions and this plays hell with my life. I keep giving to the Army, but they give so little in return. They take and take and yet don't seem to want to help me out when I need it. I just don't understand it.

I worry about my sister and her family a lot, my brother lives with them and I sometimes feel they take advantage of him too much. He needs so much, but I don't have it to give. They don't take care of themselves, well lets just say there are things I see as an outsider, but they seem to be happy. Who am I to say whats good for them?

I sometimes worry about things too much. I've been trying to get in contact and hang out with old friends and people who matter to me as well as make new friends. I'm still establishing myself here in Houston and I'm grateful to my friends who've been there to listen and help keep me motivated and going. I hope they know how much they all mean to me.

It's been rough, I feel like this has been a good step in coming back to Houston, there's a lot here that I've been missing. I have hopes of great things being accomplished soon despite certain setbacks.

If you need to get ahold of me feel free to do so, most evenings you can find me at starbucks on kuykendahl and louetta, though call or text me as my truck might be there, but I might have headed out with friends downtown to Empire or Brazils. 832-858-8401

I have a friend who means the world to me and I have hurt them. Through words and deeds I have caused them pain unknowingly and unthinkingly. I was selfish and inconsiderate.

I have no words to say that can express how I feel at this moment. I can only say I'm sorry and hope that is enough.

I am sorry, please forgive me.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, While loving someone deeply gives you courage." - Lao Tzu

There is a lesson here, tell me if you know what it is...

The farmers see a crowd of people. A samurai has gone to the river's edge to be shaved by a monk.
A man with a moustache and a sword pushes his way through the crowd and squats scratching his chin. (It's Toshiro Mifune)
A handsome, aristocratic young man asks someone what's happening. A thief is hiding in a barn. He is holding a baby hostage. The samurai has asked for monk's robes and two rice cakes.
The samurai puts on his disguise. He feels Mifune watching and turns. His eyes are black in a white face on a black screen. Mifune stares blankly back. The samurai's eyes are black in a white face. Mifune scratches himself. The samurai turns away. He turns back and looks at Mifune; his eyes are black, his face is white. He turns away and goes to the barn.
Mifune sits on a stump close behind him to watch.
The samurai tells the thief he has brought food, tossed the rice cakes through the door, and follows.
The thief runs from the barn and falls down dead.
The samurai drops the thiefs sword in the dirt.
The parents of the child rush forward to take it.
Mifune runs forward brandishing his sword. He jumps up and down on the body.
The samurai walks off without a backward look.

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where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
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work places are your favorite places to attack
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I know I haven't posted anything of worth here in a long time, it's just that I've been going through a change in my life. I'm attempting to correct some mistakes and to regain something precious which I thought was lost, but there is always hope.

I've got a lot on my mind, there are things which seem to be out of reach, but are so close it hurts.

I haven't been sleeping well, I barely eat and what I do eat isn't what I should be eating. I'm worried about a lot of things, but there are somethings that are more often on my mind than not.

I know I'm being vague, that there isn't a whole lot of anything that's worthy of your time, but I appreciate you taking the time to read these thoughts of mine.

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will energize you. You aren't afraid of marriage or commitment. In this moment, you think of love as something you need. You feel like love is the only thing to live for.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?