Maturity brings so many things...

I have learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I have learned that one good turn usually gets most of the blankets.

I have learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it.

I have learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.

I have learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up that you think.

I have learned that its not what you wear; its how you take it off.

I have learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.

I have learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I have learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

I have learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.

I have learned that age is a very high price to pay for maturity.

Getting to know you.... all about you..... Let your friends know you more! copy and repost with your answers...

1. initials: HHM
2. name someone with the same birthday as you:??? Heather & Brandy Pence, 2 girls I grew up with, June 23rd
3. where was your first kiss? playground
4. for or against same sex marriages? I don’t really care, As long as the people involved are happy why should it matter to me?
5. are you homophobic? no
6. are you bisexual? no
7. do you believe in God? yes
8. how many US states have you been to? I think 20+
9. how many of the US states have you lived in? 4
10. have you ever lived outside the US? no
11. name something you like physically about yourself: my head
12. name something non physical you like about yourself: I'm a big loveable goofball
13. where do you want to go to college? I’ve been going to several colleges, still working on my degree plan despite some setbacks
14. what is your dream car? A 4door truck or SUV type
15. if you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? Europe
16. have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone? yes
17. how many concerts have you gone to? A lot, so many I’ve lost track
18. do you download music? yes
19. how many illegal things have you done? I’m not telling
20. where would you want to go on a first date? Some place that was creative, yet a place where you could get to know the other person.
21. describe your perfect date: Connecting with someone so well that you lose all track of time and what’s going on around you.
22. has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yes
23. ever been kissed under fireworks? yes
24.have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time? no
25. do you like president bush? Yes
26. have you ever bungee jumped? Kinda
27. have you ever white-water rafted? yes
28. have you ever crashed a car? Several times
29. has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you? yes
30. have you met a real redneck? yep...half of my sister's husbands family
31. are you interested in anyone right now? Yes, she’s awesome and I hope she reads this cause she knows who she is.
32. what song are you listening to right now? Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson
33. what is your current favorite song? Something by the killers
34. what was the last movie you watched? The Wedding Crashers
35. who was the last person you said you loved? My Mom
36. where was the last place you went besides your house? HEB Grocery store, oh yeah I know, so hot, I clip coupons… haha
37. have you ever seriously vandalized someone else’s property? What do you mean by seriously? As in it was serious? Or was I serious when I did it? Have I vandalized someone else’s property, yes.
38. have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? Does my sister count? You know when we were kids we used to rough house, I wouldn’t even consider it now.
39. have you ever sang in front of a large number of people? yes...
40. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I’d like to say something all sweet and polite, but I’m male, so I won’t lie to you.
41. what really turns you on? A great smile and the personality that goes with it, just being able to connect to the person and have fun.
42. what do you usually order from starbucks? Venti unsweetened, undiluted black ice tea.
43. what is your biggest mistake? Holding back from love and holding back the love that someone else deserves.
44. have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? Heh, yes.
45. say something totally random about you: I’m not a big fan of clowns and I once had a pet turtle named Sammy.
46. do you have an i-pod? nope
47. has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? yes and they are crazy because I don’t think I look anything like Keanu Reeves, but I get it often enough that I wonder.
48. do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? I am all about cartoons
49. do you have braces? Nope.
50. are you comfortable with your height? Yeah, I don’t know what I’d do with a couple extra inches.
52. do you speak any other languages besides English? I can order a taco and I know a little french
53. have you ever been to a tanning salon? Yes, but I was only going to support a friend, I swear. haha
54. what magazines do you read? Game Informer, the subscription was free!
55. do you think these surveys are stupid? Sometimes, but I have fun with them anyway.
56. do you have a hidden talent? yup and you'll probably never find out what it is
57. have you gone farther than kissing? yeah
58. have you ever ridden in a limo? yes
59. has anyone you were really close with passed away? yes
60. do you watch mtv? unfortunately
61. whats something that really annoys you? obnoxious people
62. whats something you really like? A good book on a rainy day, or better yet a great girl on a rainy day.
63. do you like michael Jackson? I enjoy the music the man made, but in light of his recent transgressions and the way he chooses to live his life, I can’t honestly say that I care for the guy at all
64. can you dance? Yes, at least I think so.
65. have you ever surfed? Tried, fell, tried again and fell again.
60.do you know how to pump gas? Umm.. let me think, this is a tough one, yeah
67. do you drive? yeah
68. whats the latest you have ever stayed up? Got up on a Wed and didn’t go to sleep till Tues the following week or something very similar
69. have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? No, we all have those moments during our youth when we think things, but I don’t think I fully thought I’d ever die, nor do I still think so.
70. were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? Lots of times
71. have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? yeah
72. did you do it? yes
73. do you actually read these when other people fill them out? Sometimes, though most of the time it’s not until I am filling them out myself...and I just erase their answers

It's Thursday, August 11th and I've spent my day well, at least I think so, though I was thwarted at multiple angles on several different things, I did run into some old friends, got some of the records I needed and ordered more so that I might be able to compile a concise case.

Living with my parents again is a bit unsettling, I hadn't ever planned to come back home, but then again can I call this 2 bedroom apartment a home? My parents constantly continue to fight and argue, which makes me wonder if they do this while I'm here or if they have an even better relationship when I'm gone? They've got so many issues it's not funny, but they're family. I can't seem to communicate with them, especially my Dad, it only takes him just a few words to piss me off and I don't know if he's doing it on purpose or not, but enough of that for now, it's making me feel more than unhappy. I need this to be a very temporary situation.

I've spoken with several friends that are down here and who have their own places, they've most of them agreed that it would be great to have a roommate or something like that, I just don't know about moving in with friends again. The last few times I've moved in with someone I've cared about things just haven't seemed to go right for either parties involved. What can I do though? I can't stay here and I don't want to be a burden on any friends that I might go live with, I want to be able to stand on my own two feet.

The Army has me set up for several missions coming up, so I'm going to be out and about around the country, if you see me stopping at a city near you then drop me a note and say hi.

12-14 Aug - Houston, Texas
18-20 Aug - Houston, Texas
28 Aug - 14 Sept - Fort Riley, Kansas

After these missions, who knows where I'll wind up? So what next people? give me a ring, send me an email or just whatever. Have a great one!

I have recently moved back to Houston,Texas and things are going well, though I'm still adjusting to the move back and everything. For those of you who still read this give me a call sometime at 832-858-8401 or feel free to contact me at hmelrose@gmail.com.

"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it, right? And this bag was like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in." -- Ricky Fitts, American Beauty


And now for one of mine...

the leaves

The leaves
They fly left
They fly right
Strange, like messengers
The autumn left behind
Barren limbs echo the hollow cry
Of the chill in the orchard
Nights grow short
Dreams break off before they end
The days get colder
One more leaf let’s go, and
Then another takes to the wind
Each day the absent grow
More numerous as the snow begins to fall
Leaving limbs barren and frozen
Alone

- Hugh Melrose...