Honeybrowne

May, 28 2006 at Big Texas (under 21)
19959 Holzwarth, Spring, TX 77388
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Chemical Reaction

When I hear your voice
a hormone that I can’t name
and that can’t be measured
by any scientific tool,
makes me feel
like I am in paradise.

It starts like a late night glass of wine
On a warm summer beach
caressed by the sound
of gentle waves
coming home

And it ends like
the sound of a symphony
on the 4th of July,
just after the fireworks
and imaginations
have exploded
in star studded sky.

When I look it you
it is like striking a match.
All my sensations flare
like the smell of sulfur
that singes my nostrils
and the sound
of that crisp sizzle and crack
before chemicals
spontaneously combust
into skin burning flame.

And when you touch me
it is even more volatile,
like nitro glycerin,
as my heart and such
seems ready to burst
at the thought
of you.

So I sit here waiting
for that reaction to begin
as everything starts
with you.

A few old pieces brought forth into the light once again, they were written for someone who never got the chance to read them. So I give them freely to you.

Springtime in August

One brilliant August evening,
just as sundown fades to night,
their gazes met, and for the first
time, shared each other's light.
Now, wondering how he came to this
most glorious of lives,
thoughts center on the origins
of love without disguise.

Love may be accidental or
meticulously planned
But that night, by some twist of fate,
the heavens took a stand
and called to him from up on high,
"Her heart is filled with light!"
And so began, then, you and I,
on that good August night.
---------------
Though distance separates us both,
the stars connect us now
Their fire yields to ours the way
'Till time and space allow
the bringing of our hearts to one,
the masterpiece complete
forever here, with you in arms
From which I shan't retreat.
---------------
you are my moonlight sonata,
and all the tangled lips we bind
are the whole notes that I find
encompass every bit of happiness
that's in this measure of my life.
---------------
This refrain of connection and
the presence of perfection in
a moment of the birth of something new
has got me feeling very blessed
because tonight I'd never guessed
connections made, the best refrain
would perfectly be you.

We can dance
Take a second chance
To fall
While listening to
One song
The pain of yesterday
Flowing through my
Tears today
A local legend
And his long time
Lucky charm
Walking through the
Memories
The go go
Voo doo
Mojo
Brewing
2 years ago
Thank you for loving me
Healing begins
Tonight
With just
You and me
ALWAYS
Smiles came easy
Because of you

Closure eyes
Look to the light
Today is a new day
Wipe the past away
The tears that fell
Tell the tale
Of 100 years
The story of
My life
You and me
Every word
Was a piece of me
Every song
Was a piece of you
I never felt so
At home
As I Do
With you
Healing is beginning
Endings are ending
The smiles,
The miles,
The memories
Being reborn
To return
For better
For worse
We have survived
The storm
This is what
Got us here
That long
Winding road
To hell and back
But heaven is in sight

if you ask me if i am a romantic, i would say yes, perhaps a bit too romantic at times though. my effinity to romance is only a secret i am really a pleaser when it comes to relationships. i give roses and chocolates, i send sweet little notes, i am always thoughtful and caring and i'm not ashamed to show it. i whisper sweet words before sleeping and plant kisses first thing in the morning. my partner thinks i'm the most romantic guy in the whole world. its not hard for me to show my partner that i care about them, that going through these motions is a recipe for a good relationship.

what i would admit is that i have biological, moral, and social needs; and in order to maintain that i will have to act accordingly. inside me is a heart that has more than enough space for romantic emotions, which is really the heart of this whole blog. now this is just a personal opinion and i'm putting it here for the concept of sharing. the truth is this is still an ongoing thought exercise that either needs a lot more refinement or would probably be thrown to the bin and into oblivion when the fog clears.

recently, i have been a confidant to a very dear friend. her problem is she fell in love with her boyfriend's best friend. their love triangle is not the topic here so i will leave her anonymous. what strikes me is the evident propensity of people to be attracted to the opposite sex in ways like only cupids arrow can do to make them instantly declare that they are in love. notwithstanding that they met only two weeks ago, they practically do not know anything about each other, there only time together were some phone calls, some messages, and some emails. how can you be in love?

is love a tingling sensation you feel for the person you want? you're bones become brittle and you're like melted butter floating in the clouds. doesn't it need reason at all? really? does love have to precede realationships or can love be born out of a relationship?

i know a couple, they're of chinese descent, who were forced into marriage by their parents in their late teens. prior to their marriage they didn't even know the other exist. they're very old now, probably in their eigthies. there love is legendary in the whole neighborhood because they never separated even once. their respect and commitment to each other is unrivaled. eight children, all successful in their own professions. in a small town each family's life is an open book and their story is not so different than ours. they had their own share of tribulations but they stuck together no matter what. they're a picture of a happy family and a wonderful love story.

i know a guy, a very close friend. fell in love with his college classmate. they wed and had two children. it didn't work out well for them so they separated. only a few months later he fell in love with another girl and they decided to live together. they had two children of their own but they constantly clash all the time so they had to separate too. then came another girl, and guess what? he fell in love again. he's a love factory because he never seems to run out of it. i haven't heard from him in a long time. the last news i have of him is that he's got five children in his house and no wife.

i know a guy, who in college had this girlfriend for three years and he loved her. why? i do not know. probably because he missed her when she wasn't around. they enjoyed being together. shared each others dreams and aspirations. whatever the reason, he know he loved her, he just did. but that was a long time ago, he hasn't seen her and he wouldn't probably see her anymore. is he still in love with her? no. but he used to be. if you asked him now he doesn't even remember how it felt. time moved on and he didn't stay to linger. once upon a time they were so in love, and so he thought. but today it's all just memories, and very faint memories at that.

this brings me now to my postulate. I cannot speak in generalities concerning the process of falling in love in regards to how long it takes, nor what it takes. For me personally I fell in love with the snap of a finger. Realizing it was love was what took a bit longer. When I knew that living without that person, without her, was an impossibilty, thats when I knew I was in love. When I cannot imagine my future without her I know I am still in love with her. you see I think a relationship is what needs nurturing , not love itself. For me love is a feeling, either you have it or you don't. real love is a posteriori to a relationship and grows like a seed to a full and sturdy tree. it needs nurturing and caring. experiencing things together and always being there for each other. many memories of pain and wonderful moments. when you're both old and you can still say "I LOVE YOU" to each other, there's the love. Love is so many different thoughts, emotions and actions that I'm not able to contain into words but I know it takes patience, commitment and compromise to make it work.

I really don't know anything about anything. Especially when it comes to love. But I do have some beliefs....

"Of course, true love is exceptional- two or three times a century, more or less. The rest of the time there is vanity or boredom." - Camus

"Love is not love when alteration finds. Oh no, it is an ever fixed mark." - Billy S.

"I experienced a secret suffering, a sort of privation that made me emptier and allowed me, partly through obligation and partly out of curiosity, to make a few commitments. Inasmuch as I needed to love and be loved, I thought I was in love. In other words, I acted the fool." - Camus

For me personally, I feel love. I know it when I feel it. I don't wonder about it. I also don't do romantic or sweet things simply because I am obligated or someone has to tell me to do them, I do them because the thought of bringing a smile to the face of someone I love makes me happy. all i know is i love the small things, not necessarily gifts and candy, although they are included of course, but gestures. the small things, the details, those are what i enjoy, not as much for whomever but as much for how i feel afterwards.

Love is a decision to put someone else's needs and desires before your own. It is a decision to take care of someone so thoroughly, that you do what is right for them even when your anger breeds the desire to do otherwise. Love is an act, not some illusive feeling.

love is my secret weakness. I've been lucky (or unlucky) to find myself in love before. when i'm in love, i give 100% of myself to that person and try to show them how much I care with small gestures of appreciation, not so much material things as meaningful words or actions that might show that person that they are important to me. There is no real truth about love - every love has each own truth.. basicly it is about feelings - and there are different kinds of love. Love to your family, love to your children, love to your friends - and the love between lovers.. Often the word love is misused in my oppinion - I dont think many of us would believe a person that said that he or she loved us after having known us for 2 hours. Many people want to be sure about love - some to much. That is probably why the quote "follow your heart" is a cliché but very true. I adore love - and I dont think there is no need to explain every fragment of it... just feel it and enjoy it..

I'm tired and have had a rough day...


I'm tired and have had a rough day and no one to really talk to about it all, please forgive me for my poor attitude, I've got a lot on my mind.

I've recently had several friends get into accidents, car accidents, one is recovering, but he was in a coma for a long time, its going to take longer for him and he may never be 100%. Another friend of mine was also in a car wreck and almost died, his car flipped and went off a steep embankment. Today, I learned a friend of mine in Florida is in the hospital because of a car wreck.

I've had my share of wrecks and my friends know this and I've talked to them about stretching themselves thin, burning the candles at both ends you know and then trying to drive, but people get careless.

I had the day off today, but no one to really talk to, so I just went and thought about it all day. I ran my errands, got my oil changed, a hair cut and went by the grocery store. All the while my friend is still in the hospital fighting for his life, we've got mutual friends and I'm just waiting on the word about him. I tried calling his Dad, but I didnt get a response. I hope he's okay.

Its all of that, plus a whole lot of other things that I'm dealing with, everythings wrapped up in my head and I'm just trying to find a constructive way of dealing with it. Trying to remain positive in the face of it all, smile in the face of it all.

Then I came home this evening to find my parents in the kitchen talking to an insurance salesman about life insurance policies, mortality, life expectancy and all that mess. that was the icing on my cake for the day.

I dont like thinking about that, but I know I should, its something that should be planned for and taken care of well in advance. I know I'm covered, but I never really thought about my parents. You don't think about them in those terms. you know what I'm saying? I have my brother to think about too, how will he be taken care of if my parents pass, I'm sure my sister would take him in, but that would be an added burden on her again. There are so many things to think about, to factor in, none of us know how much time we have on this earth, we should all make the best of it.

A good friend of mine's mother recently passed. She's older, my friend, and her mother was battling cancer so in a way this, as she said, was for the best, but I know how its affecting her. I know she's not holding up well and there's not a whole lot I can do to help her.


there is more going on, a lot more, but I've already dumped a load on you and I know its getting late. I'm sorry I shouldnt have done that, I appreciate you all, I really do. The people in my life, my friends, family and others, they all mean a lot to me, they are my strength. They are who and why I've sacrificed so much for and when they hurt, I hurt. I love you all deeply.

a friends words

A friend of mine, helped me form the words for this, without even realizing it he helped form the foundation for this.

I definitely fear success. That is one of the many things I've been noticing about myself. I tend to place the blame on outside factors at times, never considering the fact that its my own self that is shooting me in the foot.

I always thought I was bad at everything I did. when in actuality, I think I pick up almost everything fairly fast. And do so well that I get bored. when I get bored, I slack. when I slack, I don't do well at whatever it is. That's all I see, That I'm slacking or just going through the motions. Always trying something new. And always taking a little self hate with me because I think I sucked at something I was actually good at.

That is an example of how messed up it is in my head. It takes a lot of work just to see this stuff. Changing it takes time. I'm glad I've had good friends to help me along the way.

The thing is, now that I see it, I am moving to forward to do things I told myself I was going to do when I was younger. There are a lot of positive motivating factors in my life, yes I've had some setbacks, but I will keep moving forward.

I was afraid until now. I'm still afraid. but I think that's okay.

I will survive. I will thrive and go on to live again.

I have a lot to give and I give it to you freely.

I ain't first class and I ain't white trash, that's who I am, and who I'm not, I mean, I'm a Son, a Brother, an Uncle, A friend, A Soldier, an extremely hard worker, a true believer and an eternal optimist. I believe in people, that we're here to love each other & ourselves. We're here to share everything: ourselves, talents, ideas, truths, knowledge lives.

I have a lot to give and I give it to you freely.

A friend has this on their profile and I like to read it for inspiration.

"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission"

Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Mark Twain said it.

The fact that man knows right from wrong proves his intellectual superiority to other creatures; but the fact that he can do wrong proves his moral inferiority to any creature that cannot.
- Mark Twain (Samuel Clemens)

Violence isn't the answer, but sometimes it feels so good to let go. I've got some stuff building up in me and it needs a release.

I've got a lot going on in my life right now, just like everyone else, but this is mine and so it affects me more than others. I'm attempting to face the world with a smile on my face and to be as I often tell my friends, "like a duck in the rain or a penguin on the ice and just let it slide" I'm a rock in a raging river and I'm standing fast, but time will wear me down and I dont know if I can stand that test.

I'm surviving.

Thats not the best answer, if you take a minute or longer to think about it you'll understand that there is more meaning in that simple statement than I am letting on to.

It's not living.

It's surviving. it's crawling forward, taking one more breath, its going without sleep, but waking up tired, its emotionally tearing me apart and there isnt anything else I can do about it. It's holding myslef together while standing in the face of the storm. It's all I can focus on.

I will survive, I will go on.

So, today was a little crazy, someone slashed my tires at work. I dont know who did it or why anyone would have any reason too, I'm just glad I saw it before I got further down the road. I won't go into all the details of what happened, but lets just say that I had another close call and someone wants me around for a while longer.

I doubt he'll read this, but to the guy in the white truck that stopped to offer me some help, I really appreciate it. I only hope that I can pay it forward sometime soon.

my spare was low on air as well and luckily since I own another Blazer I was able to have that spare brought to me while sitting on the side of the road covered in grease and in the hot sun, let me tell you, that was the highlight of my day. I wound up having to buy 2 new tires and didn't get home until late. Where I showered, had something to eat and passed out. I woke up and now I'm writing this, I'm still tired so I'm going to try to get some more sleep.

I wonder sometimes where my life could be if I had made different choices, then I think, well no one is perfect and life is all about learning to make correct decisions and finding happiness in our lives while finding ways to help others to do the same. I did a little thinking today about that and there are alot of people who don't know where to find happiness. It's not that they are incapable of finding it, but they're blinded from it for one reason or another. We all go through life experiences. It's impossible to go through life without getting some kind of emotional, spiritual, physical injury. I wonder whether the scarring is something we inflict upon ourselves. I wonder if lifes great mysteries and the path to happiness is right in front of us all the time, all we need to do is use the key to open the door. I've known that I find happiness in helping others, listening to them in trouble times, giving them a hug when they're in need of it or just being there. That's where real happiness comes from. It's a part of self worth and knowing that you've made a difference in someone's life. So I guess todays moral is that we can find happiness in helping others find theirs, having compassion for others when we don't have to. You'll be suprised in the difference it will make in your own life...

If I speak with the languages of men and of angels, but don't have love, I have become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal.

If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but don't have love, I am nothing.

If I dole out all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but don't have love, it profits me nothing.

Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud, doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
-First Corinthians, Chapter 13

I love all of you. I've been less than patient with one or more of you, and for that I am sorry. I will do my best to make sure my love for all of you bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things.

My passion I could never feign
you awaken me
wet smoldering kisses
slow kisses
the kind that cause your
breath to stop
your face
that painfully
beautiful face
in my hands
your lips
soft as I imagine them
pressed bruising
against mine
your breath
sweet and hot
mingling with mine
as bottom lips
are held
between teeth
that mouth
your tongue firm
entwined with mine
by your tiny waist
I will pull you
closer to me
and I will kiss you
hard and deep
forever

1.you listening to music right now?: Yes, music is a part of my life.
2. Are you wearing makeup?: haha, umm no.
3. Do you like Chinese food?: Yes
4. What were you doing at noon yesterday?: packing.
5. Are you shy?: Sometimes,but then I loosen up pretty fast, I'm a bit of a nutcase.
6. When do you have Spring Break?: In the Spring?
7. Do you like cats?: Sure.
8. What is your natural hair color?: Brown
9. Do you have Facebook?: nope
11. Is your favorite color blue?: Its in the mix yes.
12. Do you like Eminem?: Some of his songs yes.
13. Does Hot Topic scare you?: No, its a store, why would it scare me?
14. Do you have an older sister?: Yes, One.
15. Is there a necklace you have that you wear 24/7?: my ID tags
16. Ever been to a foreign country?: Yes.
17. Do you support the war in Iraq? I honestly can't give an opinion on this, I support the troops, I dont like war.
18. Have you ever watched America's Next Top Model?: Yes
19. Can you speak French? A few words, not much.
20. Do you like doughnuts? I answered this same Question in the last survey...weird. Yes.
21. Can you play the guitar? I can strum a little, but play, no.
22. Is it raining right now? No, its beautiful out and I'm loading a truck.
24. What time is it?: 1:22p.m.
25. Do you ever listen to the Backstreet Boys?: Yes
26. Do you shop at Hollister? Huh? where? No...
27. Do you like using pens or pencils better?: Pens, black ink
28. Do you sing?: On occasion
29. Do you like Chocolate?: Yes
30. Have you ever baked cookies?: Yes
31. Do you have a driver's license? Yes
32. Will you/did you get a car the minute you turn/turned 16?: No, drove my parents, but then I've been driving for years.
33. Do you read the newspaper?: yeah from time to time
34. Did you watch the Academy Awards?: No
35. Do you want to be an actress?: No, maybe an Actor..
36. would you shave your head for 900 dollars?: haha sure! its hair it will grow back.
37. Can you do a backflip?: I'm not sure, haven't tried in a long time.
38. Are you on any sports teams at your school?: No.
39. Do you write in a journal/diary?: Almost every day.
40. Is it fun to make snow angels?: Sometimes.
41. Do you watch Desperate Housewives?: No.
42. Do you make jewelry? No.
43. Are you failing any classes right now?: Nope.
44. When was the last time you skipped a class?: I dont remember.
44. Have you ever pretended to be sick and stayed home from school? Yes, of course everyone has.
45. Have you ever been to the circus?: Unfortunately, Yes.
47. When was the last time you ate something?: 15 mins ago
48. Have you ever had your appendix taken out?: Nope
49. Ever been drunk?: Yes
50. What do you plan to do on your 21st birthday?: I've already done it
51. Do you know anyone who goes to Xavier University?: Never heard of it.
52. Do you/did you go to a private school?: No.
53. Are you a good soccer player?: No, but I have played.
54. Have you ever lied to your parents, but then got caught later? Yes, I've been a moron like that.
55. Have you ever had stitches?: Yes
56. On hot days, do you sit outside and tan?: I do yardwork to get a tan
57. Do you like swinging on swingsets?: Who doesnt like to swing?
58. Do you like planting flowers?: Ummm...No.
59. Do you bake well? Yes, its easy.
60. Is your favorite holiday Christmas?: No, I don't have a favorite holiday.

Mark "x" where you fit in and repost! Don't explain anything!!

You are
[ ] short, under 5'0
[ ] 5'0 - 5'3
[ ] 5'4 - 5'6
[] 5'5 -5'7"
[] 5'8" - 6'1
[x] tall 6'2 and up

NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] auburn
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[x] light brown
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black

[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/grey-eyed
[ ] they change colors-sometimes

[x] glasses
[ ] colored contacts
[ ] clear contacts
[ ] neither

Hair Length
[x] short hair
[ ] medium
[ ] long hair
[ ] mohawk

You've been:
[x] rafting
[x] water skiing
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] surfing and skim/wake boarding
[ ] water polo
[x] snowboarding
[x] skiing
[x] street luging
[x] lacrosse
[x] street hockey
[ ] gymnastics
[x] martial arts
[x] bmx
[x] tubing
[ ] cheerleading
[x] canoeing


You can't stand listening to? (what don`t you like?)
[] country
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[] opera
[ ] reggae
[ ] emo
[ ] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] metal
[ ] hardcore
[ ] rock
[ ] rap / Hip-Hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] classic rock
[ ] polka


The pets you have HAD or have?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] bunny
[x] fish
[ ] duck
[ ] horse
[] bird
[x ] frog
[] hermit crab
[ ] prairie dog
[ ] none
[x ] turtle
[] hamster
[ ] snake
[] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[ ] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] chicken
[ ] sugar glider
[ ] crawfish

Clothing Brands you like?

[x] American Eagle
[] Hollister
[ ] The Buckle
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch
[x] Wal-mart
[] Wet Seal
[ ] O'neill
[x] PacSun
[] Aeropostale
[x] Dickies
[] Roxy
[ ] Anchor Blue
[ ] Guess
[x] Hot Topic
[ ] Lucky
[ ] Champs
[x ] Salvation army/goodwill
[x] other thrift stores
[X] if i like it i'll wear it
[ x] Old navy
[] Nude
[] Volcom
[x] Whatever's clean
[ ] Forever 21
[] Victorias Secret
[ ] H&M
[ ] Rampage

States I have been to.

[x] Alabama
[x] Alaska
[x] Arizona
[x] Arkansas
[ x] California
[x] Colorado
[x] Connecticut
[ ] Delaware
[x] Florida
[x]Georgia
[ ] Hawaii
[x] Idaho
[x] Illinois
[ ] Indiana
[x] Iowa
[x] Kansas
[x] Kentucky
[x] Louisiana
[ ] Maine
[ ] Maryland
[x] Massachusetts
[x] Michigan
[ ] Minnesota
[xx] Mississippi
[x] Missouri
[x] Montana
[x] Nebraska
[x ] Nevada
[x ] New Hampshire
[x ] New Jersey
[x ] New Mexico
[x ] New York
[x ] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[x ] Ohio
[x ] Oklahoma
[x] Oregon
[x] Pennsylvania
[ ] Rhode Island
[x] South Carolina
[x] South Dakota
[x] Tennessee
[x] Texas
[x] Utah
[x] Vermont
[x] Virginia
[] Washington
[x] Washington DC
[x] West Virginia
[x] Wisconsin
[x] Wyoming


Your confessions:

[ x] I am really ticklish
[x] I've collected comic books
[x ] I read the news
[x] I love Disney movies
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have/have had "x"s in my screen name
[x] I cook well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I like Martha Stewart .
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] Im self conscious
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I have been drunk
[x] I have tried a cigarette
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ x] I bite my nails
[x] Gotten lost in the city
[x] Gone out in public in your underwear
[x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Been skydiving
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Egged a house/car
[x] Ding dong ditched someone
[x] Crashed into a car
[x ] Been fired
[x ] Been skinny dipping
[x ] Caused the windows to fog in a car


Have you ever...

[x] stolen a sign
[x] danced in the rain
[x] seen a shooting star
[x] proposed to anyone
[x] gotten stitches
[x] eaten Sushi
[x ] gotten the chicken pox
[x] ridden in a taxi
[x] went on a cruise ship
[x] driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] been on a plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[X] seen a movie more than 3 times
[x] been on stage
[x] gotten a black eye
[] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[ ] watched an entire baseball game on tv

Do you like...

[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in the car
[x] donuts
[x] animals
[x] coffee



[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[x] done something you swore never to do
[x] lied
[x] stole
[x] went behind your parent(s) back
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[x ] kept your new years resolution
[ x] forgot your new years resolution
[x ] met someone who changed your life
[x] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were.
[x] made a total fool of yourself
[x] met great people

Okay Ladies, This is a message to you to try to get it though your head that makeup doesn't make you beautiful, you're already beautiful and so this came from that. I find it difficult to convince a woman that God doesn't make mistakes! so when you say you need surgery or more make up you are just saying you are flawed! You're not flawed, you're beautiful and perfect just the way you are. They never listen to me for some reason....

V1
Who needs makeup
You were born flawless
Still you think
They can see to your heart
If you could only see
Through my eyes, you might find that

C
When your hair's a mess
And your makeup’s gone
You wanna hide from me
Like there's something wrong
You think I’m staring
At your flaws
Babe I’m staring cause
I can’t find one at all
I always find you beautiful

V2
Let me list the ways
You take my breath away
Like your Angel eyes or that smile
The way you hold me
When no ones around
The look I catch in your eyes

Its a work in progress and it was inspired by an event not too long ago... let me know what you think.

1.If you weren't doing what you're doing now, what would you be doing? Hanging with Mr. Cooper...err spending time with friends and people I care about, or buried in a good book.
2.If you escaped from jail and were running from the police, where would you go? I'm in Texas, so I'd have to say Mexico...haha. so cliche'
3.Your college budget only allows $2(or equivalent currency) for lunch; how do you spend it? $0.99 menu and some water
4.What song would you want them to play at your funeral?
I havent really thought about it that much.
5.If you joined the Peace Corps. where would you want them to send you? Wherever my help could be best used.
6.If you had a license to kill, who would be the first person you'd kill? I honestly abhor violence and try to stay away from it as much as possible, but thats kind of odd given my profession. I dont want to see anyone hurt.
7.What's your karaoke song? This would be telling..
8.Who's the hottest person you wouldn't have sex with for all the money in the world? This is a trick question...
9.If you could choose any place in the world to propose(marriage), where would it be? Germany, Notre Dame Cathedral
10. What's the worst injury you've ever sustained? I've broken bones, perforated internal organs and have split my brain with a stop sign, take your pick.
11.What's the most erotic thing you've ever done? Once again, that would be telling..
12.What's your drink? Iced Tea, Dr Pepper, Water, Beer, etc..
13.If you wrote a romance novel, what would be the names of the two main characters? Oh now this is tough, but I'd keep it simple, ' a young man' and a 'young woman' this way I'm not upsetting anyone, by naming names.
14.If you could re-name your old school, it would be called? Sky High.. haha.
15.The greatest masterpiece ever done by man is? to have children and to be a good father.
16.The crime of the century is? Yet to be done?
17.The ideal date would be? Amazing. something simple and yet so full of meaning.
18.Favorite 80's song? 'Come on Eileen' by Dexys Midnight Runner's
19.What did you wish you took in college? Everything, I dont think I'll ever stop striving for more knowledge. More foreign languages would be nice though.

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.
Loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves. "

~ Victor Hugo

27 Questions.. Another Survey, Another Day..

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? mmm... I haven't looked at a mirror yet, so I'll keep you posted on this one..
2. How much cash do you have on you? considering the fact I'm still in my jammies..none..
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? More! More! More?
4. Favorite planet? I'm kind of partial to this one, since it has that whole sustains life thing going for it.
5. Who is the 5th person on your missed call list on your mobile phone? Kathryn
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? umm, the generic one?
7. What shirt are you wearing? plain grey t-shirt
8. Do you "label" yourself? Label's? like freshness guaranteed? Consume product by this date? no, I dont label myself
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? none, but I've got some sketchers around here somewhere
10. Bright or Dark Room? for what? sleep, I like it dark, for other things, a little light helps.
11. How often do you clean out your belly button? umm, not very often, or when it comes to mind
12. Have you ever had a fart that smelled non-fart like? wtf is this question doing here?
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking with friends, instant messaging and writing an email or two.
14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? "Good luck today"
15. The closest 7-11? About 10 minutes away.
16. What's a word that you say a lot? umm.. hi? hello? yes?
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? We're leaving this blank for personal reasons.
18. Last furry thing you touched? the hair on my head? I think I need to get a haircut soon.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Does Tylenol and caffeine count? ooh and some Alchohol at a wedding I went to.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? I probably have at least one roll around here.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 5? haha I was an awesome 5 year old...err yeah.
22. Worst enemy? myself, I am my own worst enemy.
23. What cigarettes do you smoke? Doral menthol lights in a box, ooh wait, no thats not me...I dont smoke.
24. What's was the last thing you said to someone? goodnight?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly which would it be? It all depends on how fast I could fly, cause then I could charge people for personal lifts, not to mention sponsors and tv ads.. but I'd probably take the cash, there's always a catch to those free things and the cash seems the safest.
26. Do you like someone? Yes
27. The last song you listened to? whatever was on the radio last night, ooh wait no I remember listening to "Wake me up when September ends" or something like that on myspace last night.

please take note that I have added a link to my myspace.com page in the links above, this is to both help you and myself as I post there as well as here. Thank you all for taking the time to read and email me. I truly appreciate each and everyone of you. Have a great one!

http://www.myspace.com/onlyhughman

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?
my good friend, Haitham
2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
I would like to think so.
3) Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes
4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
Yes, who hasn't?
5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Haha, yes actually.
6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?
Yes, because I was a moron and antagonized it, most of the time they sting because you harass them and its a defense mechanism, just chill and go about your business.
7) How fast can you type?
fairly fast.
8) Are you afraid of the dark?
Not the dark, but sometimes of the things in the dark and my own imagination.
9) Eye color?
Brown
10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?
Yes.
11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
long time ago
12) Do you knock on wood?
Yes, but only for humors sake
13) Do you floss daily?
No, but I should consider it.
14) Do you wanna Fanta?
Haha, umm... is this a trick question?
15) Can you hula hoop?
no
16) Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yes
17) What do you want for Christmas?
Happiness
18) Do you know the Muffin Man?
You know I know the muffin man
19) Do you talk in your sleep?
I dont know, I'm asleep.
20) Who wrote the book of love?
I know the song, but I dont know who wrote it, most likely its the big guy upstairs.
21) Have you ever flown a kite?
I have so flown the best kites out there and I've had me some spectacular crashes.
22) Do you wish on your fallen lashes?
Sometimes, but its always the same wish.
23) Do you consider yourself successful?
Sometimes.
24) How many people are on your contact list of your cell?
Alot, I'm not counting...
25) Have you ever asked for a pony?
Haha, not exactly, a Horse yes, a pony no.
26) Plans for tomorrow?
Work, friends, caffeine, call the school, lots of stuff.
27) Can you juggle?
Life issues yes, little colored balls or bowling pins? no.
28) Missing someone now?
Yes
32) How are you feeling today?
Good, excited a little caffeineted..
34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
I've been sent home from school, does that count?
35) What are you lookin' forward to?
The new job, friends, life, the future..blah blah blah..
36) Have you ever crawled through a window?
Heck yeah, so many times its not funny
37) Have you ever eaten dog food?
not that I can recall, wait, I think I munched on a dog biscuit thinking it was a health bar once. I dont reccomend it.
38) Can you handle the truth?
Yes, I am stronger than the truth.
39) Do you like green eggs and ham?
Yes, Sam I am.
40) Any cool scars?
Chicks dig my scars... haha

1. I deleted it cause it didnt make any sense.
2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
my old boy scout T-shirt from like 15 years ago, haha, hey its moving day.
3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
Yes
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP 8?
Maybe...
5. FAVORITE STARBUCKS DRINK?
I like a basic black iced tea, but I've been known to surprise the barista's every now and then with a change up.
6. DO YOU HOLD GRUDGES?
No, there's no reason to hold hate or anger in your heart, in the end it hurts you more than it does the other person.
7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
at least 2, not many more, I'd like to think I'd make a good father.
8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Most of the time, but we all have our moments.
9. Do you make over 40k a year?
I have before, but I've realized that money isnt everything and there is more to life than material possessions and money.
10. What name would you want to have besides the one you have?
My name is a unique one, but sometimes I've wanted one that is easier to say.
---- where is question 11? ----
12. WHAT IS YOUR MOTHER'S NAME?
Cathy
13. What did you do for your last birthday?
Small party with friends and then another one with family and friends.
14. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE?
The "outdoor" ringtone from T-mobile.
15. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP?
7 a.m. I know, I'm weird, I should have slept in, its Sunday!!
16. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
I'm not telling... haha
17. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
several.
18. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
my hair is short, so there isnt a whole lot there to pull.
19. FAVORITE CITY?
Austin, Houston, lots that makes me smile about both of them.
20. FAVORITE COLOR?
Blue
21. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
umm.. yeah, there's not a whole lot that I can't wait to do
22. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD?
5 seconds ago.
23. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?
most of the time, but they're family so we have our moments.
24. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
I wish I didnt sacrifice so easily, If someone I care about asks me to do something I tend to agree, despite the fact that it might hurt me in the end.
25. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
college, a new car and 2 tickets to Europe
26. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
Since, 02 Jan 1996 a little more than 10 years
27. Have you ever talked to Tom?
Yes, but it was a long time ago and I sent him some stuff about hate groups on myspace.
28. Last person you called?
my buddy Haitham, great guy and friend you should all get to know him, your life would be better for it.
---- where are question 29 and 30?? ----
31. Last thing you ate?
chicken
32. Your favorite month?
Spring weather, not too hot, but not cold either, that or Fall, for similar reasons.
33. Least favorite month?
none of them? its a month why wouldnt I like it?
34. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
a jacket?
35. Who is getting on your nerves right now?
No one really, though there is someone I'd like to talk to about a few things.
36. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
myspace or my gmail account, but I do tend to get a lot of my news from internet sources
37. LAST PERSON YOU INSTANT MESSAGED?
Melissa
38. Last person that made you sad?
nobody really, just situations. Some things that are meant to be and should be, sometimes you've just got to wait and work towards them.
39. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?
Yes, I would. I have already made a promise that I would die for you.
40. FAVORITE DRINK?
Iced Tea? Dr. Pepper? Water?
---- question 41 and 42? ----
43. Have you been to Europe?
That's Classified.
44. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
I dont hate anyone, so if someone I knew passed away I would be sad and respectful.
45. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE?
No, but I have thought about it.

50 Question survey for your amusement.

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Packing for the big move and loading the truck.
2. When is the last time you filled up your gas tank?
couple of days ago I think.
3. What is the most amount of money you spent in one store?
I honestly dont know, but if you count Sun and ski sports, then its over $500
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
A couple of blank CDR's from a multipack
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
a couple of weeks ago.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope, I'm free toe-ing it... haha..
7. Do you have a car worth over $5,000?
I'd like to think so.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
Last night
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope, not even sure whats out.
10. Are you popular?
Who isn't?
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Coke
12. What was the last thing you mailed in the mail?
a letter.
13. Do you wash your car?
I will when it needs it, but its pollen season here in Texas, so I could wash it, but 5 min later it would be dirty again
14. Last fast food you ate?
chicken
15. Where were you last week at this time?
I was spending time with someone I care about.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Yes, Socks, slacks, dress shirts, undershirts
17. What bank do you use?
One of them big fancy ones with the atm's all over the place.
18. Do you own any land?
My family does, the only land I've ever owned is sticking to my shoes.
19. What do you want to be when you "grow up"?
Happy, A father, a husband, someone that people can look up to.
20. Your dream vacation?
Europe
21. Last boat ride you went on?
Deep sea fishing with some friends.
22. How old are your parents?
50's and 60's
23. Are you in love?
Yes.
24. Do you have any single friends?
Yes.
25. Last play you saw?
Shakespeare in the park in Austin, Tx
26. Have you been to New York?
A couple of times.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
unknown at this time, though if you know me, then you have a pretty good idea of where I'll wind up.
28. Last concert you went to?
I cant remember.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
hmm... good question
30. Ever go to camp?
Yes and I have gone camping and been a Summer and Winter Camp Counselor
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
No and I think I did alright with it
32. What is your current GPA?
3.85
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Hardly ever, I take showers regularly and so I dont need to cover myself in scent.
34. Are you hungry?
I could eat something.
35. Where is your best friend (s) located?
Houston
36. Do you own a cowboy hat?
Yes, two actually. haha
37. Do you have a tan?
A slight farmers tan, but its still early in the season
38. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
Not much older, but its not just my choice.
39. Do you collect anything?
books?
40. Is this quiz annoying?
Pretty much, yet I find myself pressing on, just out of spite
41. Last time you got pulled over?
A few years ago I think.
42. Ever been arrested?
nope
43. Been to Mexico for Spring Break?
Not that I can recall
44. Do you like hot sauce?
Sure, who doesnt?
45. What is your cell phone's ringtone?
Standard outdoor cel phone ring tone
46. Do you need to do laundry?
I think I could always have something to wash. though its not a big deal at this time.
47. How many friends do you have?
664 on myspace and more outside of it, I actually know quite a lot of them. haha.
48. Are you someones best friend?
I would like to think so.
49. Are you rich?
With love, friends and family. Material possessions aren't love.
50. When was your last paycheck?
A couple of days ago.

Last night I had the opportunity to share in a friends happiness. My good friend Michelle was married last night to a great guy named Adrienne. The ceremony was held at Ella's Garden here in Tomball, it was a small and simple gathering. Mostly family and a few close friends on both sides. Michelle looked beautiful and so happy. I can only hope that one day I get to celebrate something as momentous as a wedding, starting your life together with someone you love can be a bit daunting and yet still exciting. All those new experiences, lots of firsts that are yet to be done and experienced. I wish them all the best for a long and happy life together.

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails."

"Compassion means we are willing to give love when we have been given hate, to forgive, to consciously go beyond our self-interest and bridge the gap of separation that is so prevalent in human society."

2 quotes, that I happened to come across that ring true with my own thoughts and the way I try to live my life. Simply think about it and you'll understand.

I haven't truly posted here in awhile. Yes, there have been postings, but nothing that actually touches what I'm really feeling or experiencing in my life right at this moment. I am in a state of transition, of moving forward and a lot of positive things are happening, mostly within the past week or so.

There is one thing I am confused about, I cant really go into it, but there is someone close to me and things were going so well and now... there is a wall of silence, like I'm being ignored and I dont know why? Can you explain it to me? Just give me a call if you still read this and let me know whats going on.

I've recently gotten another job and I'm excited about that, I turned down several offers that would pay me a lot more money, heck almost more than twice what I will be making, but this will allow me to go back to school and work towards completing my degree and in the long run I will be better for it.

So I'm going back to school, again... We shall see how that works out and if the Army decides to pull me away from my life again to send me where they will. I dont know whats going to happen from a daily basis and that always tends to stress me out, its a constant thought in my head. will I get the call today? or tomorrow? damn I hate not knowing.

I'm helping my parents out, they dont get around as well as they used to and they need the help. I'm helping them move and will be staying with them for awhile while they get used to their new place. Hopefully this move back home of mine doesnt last much longer. I love my family, I truely appreciate them, but I've learned to live on my own and appreciate my own space and I need that.

My family, my sister and brother, my nieces and nephew all mean so much to me, they are a part of my life I could never live without. Yes, we clash and tend to butt heads from time to time my siblings and I, but they are family. My nieces and nephew couldnt be more perfect, they're growing so fast and constantly amaze me with their new discoveries about the world. They are an inspiration, they keep me going.

My friends, what could I do without you? you have been there and continue to be there and I'm hoping that I give as much as I recieve from you all. Each of you brings so much life to my life and that I thank you for.

Well, I need to get going, a friend of mine is getting married this evening and I've got to look my best for the wedding, Thanks for reading all. Have a great one!

Hugh ~ will teach you to ~ Talk in 20s style slang

'What will your business card say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

A friend sent me this:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.


Whether its true or not, it does have meaning. I care about you all and I appreciate everything about you and who you all are.

For you, you know who you are, you know my feelings havent changed. call me.

Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around
to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
because there's some thing's
I'd like to say to you...

And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
'Cause I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing

And I dare you to forget
the marks you left
across my neck
from those nights when we were both
found at our best
Now I could make this obvious,
and you, you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off
your shoulders...

And I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing
'Cause I don't think that
you know what
you've been missing

And I don't think that you know
I said I don't think you know
I said I don't think you know what your missing


This is a little something I'm working on, but its just a rough draft of sorts and has no bearing on my current situation. I just tend to write to write and when I hear a piece of someone elses conversation, often a line or a sentence will present itself and the work will go from there.

What would you do? You make the choice! Don't look for a punch line; there isn't one! Read it anyway. My question to all of you is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children,the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:

When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?"

Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said,

"We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart.

The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. ..>

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.

As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!"

Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team,who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time.


He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.

Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay" ..>

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.

That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.

Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!



AND, NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people think twice about sharing. The crude,vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed. If you're thinking about forwarding this message,chances are that you're probably sorting out the people on your address list that aren't the"appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up that opportunity to brighten the day of those with us the least able, and leave the world a little bit colder in the process? A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

Sometimes, I miss being a kid...
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONESSS
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
Wait.
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast members of all that.
Kenan & Kel.
doug.
magic school bus.
flash forward.
pete and pete.
legends of the hidden temple.
hey dude.
dinosaurs.
pinky and the brain.
blossom.
hangin with mr.copper.
wishbone.
bill-nye the science guy.
kablamm.
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
the busy world of richard scary
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

Sometimes I miss being a kid, all those things and no cares in the world, when I could disapear into my imagination and a good book. Sometimes being all grown up is tough, but I have good friends and people I care about and we still enjoy goofing off and having a good time and I still have more than one best friend.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

riiight, these are so cheesy can they even be close to being true? Some are and yet some don't even come close to the mark. Sometimes I wish the world worked this way, that things that were meant to happen, happened. But in fact, the things that are right and good and that are meant to be dont always happen and thats the truth. You see something wrong in the world and want to correct it, so you try and sometimes you'll succeed and sometimes you'll fail, but the thing is, you tried. You put forth the effort to fight for something that is true and beautiful. You only get one shot at this life, make it what you want, go for what you want and let the people in your life know that you care about them and want to help them along the way.